"SANS SENSE, SENSELESS SENSE"

100th Post

2010-10-12T01:51:00.008+08:00

100th post of SANS SENSE, SENSELESS SENSE.

I did thought of making it special and everything some sort of like the 10/10/10 yesterday but then again all of this stuff are just figures. Figures that does not mean much to us but we made it to be meaningful. Instead, I just got back from a group discussion and I was triggered to make a post for no legit reason. Well, maybe the GF's asleep and I can't put myself to sleep right now.

I praised Allah for making things easy for me lately. Life feels great when you have everything sorted out and to have no problem and hardships in every single thing you do. Then again, I realised I was able to achieved it because I want to. I now believe that any efforts that we put to make our life content would be commensurate enough to make it happen.

You'll be suprised to know how you are able to change yourself to better or to worst. As we go on living, we'll become our own doppleganger having to possess the same physical (note: applied to certain people only) but different personality. It's inevitable. We developed and I doubt for any stagnant development in personality.

Having nothing to do with these, I have injured myself while playing rugby and now I have to walk with crutches and I find that it's very tidious having to be temporarily physically impaired. Okay maybe impaired is too strong. Temporarily disable would eufamised it well. Now that I find my life has been sorted out emotionally, negative feedback mechanism occurs physically. Hats off to the disabled for having such great determination on giving life a chance. It is just beautiful.

Oh crap I fell asleep.

Now I'm back but with no ideas.

The only thing in my head now is the sound of Freddy Mercury's voice (Bohemian Rhapsody fever) No, F you, I'm straight. Also, I woke up with a smile and realised that this contentment that I'm feeling is indubitably awesome. I haven't felt this way for quite some while. No urge of dick-slapping and no feelings of butt-raped. GTG gonna eat Honey Stars and continue with my beauty sleep.

"You've guided me through all my years, I've been lost. You've guided me from all the ways that were wrong. I wanna thank You, for bringing me home"

Eid ul-Fitr' al-Mubarak

2010-09-13T01:16:00.002+08:00

Eid ul-Fitr' al-Mubarak!

"Thank you for visiting SANS SENSE, SENSELESS SENSE. Personally, I apologize for anything that I've done wrong perhaps through this blog or even as a person myself. Maaf zahir batin and happy weight gaining everyone :)"

I admit it that I thought this Eid wouldn't be so awesome. I was proven wrong. So wrong. I would love to update the blog but I am too tired. Flat. Will try to update it later. Have fun people!

MERDEKA

2010-08-30T01:41:00.009+08:00

Let's start with something faggy first before we proceed, shall we? I have not been eating a lot for the past couple of months but lately I find myself can't stay away from food! I think that I have now developed an extra chambers in my belly just like a ruminant. I blame her for making me happy and keep these food coming into me.

So enough fagginess. Let's be serious.

I'm sure we've heard it all before on the best race in the world.

Kaum apa terhebat di dunia? Kaum pertama sekali yang terlintas di fikiran mestilah kaum...

YAHUDI. The jews. They're awesome. Indubitably.

Walau bagaimanapun, ada satu kaum ni yang men-falsify-kan dan denied the statement.

Kaum ini beranggapan merekalah terhebat. Hakikatnya memang mereka memang terhebat pun. Saya pasti tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, pakcik and all the pakciks would love to know kaum apakah sebenarnya? Saya dengar mereka panggil kaum tersebut Meleis. Meleis usually boleh didapati di banyak negara di seantero dunia ini. Dekat UK belambak, dekat Africa pon ada, dekat China ada dua tiga kerat, dekat Australia dah macam buat negara sendiri. Mereka memiliki sungguh banyak keistimewaan antaranya adalah memiliki bahasa mereka yang tersendiri dan pernah menjadi lingua franca.

So these Meleis they are brilliant. Lagi hebat dari Jews. Mereka sering kali distereotypekan dengan ability untuk menyelesaikan sesuatu masalah dengan mudah! Simple solution to any problem. Lemparlah masalah apa-apa sekalipun namun mereka mampu menanganinya dengan cemerlang, gemilang dan terbilang.

Kalau nak comment pasal Meleis ni, boleh buat thesis yang panjang lebar dan silap tak silap, mampu menang Nobel Prize untuk new discovery on human behaviour! Jadi saya taknak memanjangkan post ini.

Apa yang menyentuh hati saya yang taklah seberapa wangi ini (hati busuk) adalah kehebatan Meleis dalam berniaga. Semenjak dua menjak ini, saya kena drive ke sini dan ke sana atas pelbagai urusan. Meleis memang gemar meraba-neking (rubberneckin') dan ia telah menjadi satu stereotype kepada mereka. So, saya merayu kepada mereka yang drive di luar sana tu, tolonglah bawak elok elok sikit sebab kalau awak orang accident, Meleis pasti dan confirm akan meraba-neking dan menyusahkan kesejahteraan saya dan rakan-rakan saya di jalan raya.

Yang acap kali menaikkan darah saya adalah Bazaar Ramadhan. Meleis gemar untuk ke Bazaar Ramadhan dan saya suka perkara sebegitu kerana dapat membantu peniaga, merapatkan ukhwah antara sahabat atau keluarga dan juga mencari juadah berbuka yang enak. Namun, perkara-perkara tersebut telah dibayangi oleh satu perkara yang sering kali menyebabkan keradangan emosi iaitu kemangkukan beberapa Meleis memilih tempat berniaga dan meletakkan kenderaan.

Dah taw jalan kecik, pegi buat Bazaar kiri kanan. Meleis yang pandai dia parking je. Double park, triple park. Cuba bayangkan kalau Meleis tu double park, then Meleis yang parking dalam tu isteri dia sakit ke, mak dia nazak ke, tak ke menyusahkan? Tak perlu consider org lain sebab mereka hebat dari orang lain. Ramai Meleis memang ada trait sebegitu. So jalan yg ada satu lane untuk pergi dan balik jadilah 1 lane sahaja, maka bila selisih kereta boleh membawa kepada pertumpahan darah. Cakap pandai, taknak ada perselisihan faham antara kaum dan sebagainya tapi Meleis dengan Meleis pon tak in the same wavelength. Kan senang pergi cari tapak yang luas macam parking lot ke, buatlah kau Bazaar tengah-tengah tu. Takda sapa nak kacau.

Jangan salah faham, I have nothing againts Meleis ni. Mereka memang bijak, pandai, arif, etc. tapi janganlah inconsiderate sangat.

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN KE-53, MALAYSIA!!

"He gonna make you his sex slave. You're gonna gargle mayonnaise, unless we bust the massive monster mammo-jam. We've been thru so much shit, deactivated lasers with my dick. Now it's time to blow this fucker down."

Here I stand erected!

2010-08-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

To all the gentlefaggots out there, don't lie to me as if you do not know what I'll talk about. You and I know it damn well.

Guys, have you ever had those times in class when you stayed up the previous night watching your supporting team in EPL? You've tried so hard to defy gravity pulling on your head and to concentrate on the guy with moustache talking in front.

I am 110% sure that in this scenario, if I'm lying, I'm dying, that your little pee pee (I'm sure yours ain't that big) is working its way to get some air out of your brief. Yes, I am talking about a friggin' ERECTION. I have been observing this for quite some time (about 3 years), no, don't worry guys, I do not check on your erection. The only penis harmed in this experiment is mine. So due to this observation I am proud to present you a proposed Research Question entitled:

WHAT IS THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN PENIS ERECTION AND SLEEPINESS?

This is an extra information for the girls out there, guys get hard-on in the morning when they wake up. Due to the googling ability, I've concluded a few reason why.

1. The penis may be rubbing againts the sleepwear or the bedsheet (if you're sleeping naked).

2. You may be in the Rapid Eye Movement (REM) phase of sleeping. During REM sleep, we have a tendency to experience a vivid dream with little movement. Thus, both female and male genital will experience full genital engorgement (to ensure healthy blood flow on genitals).

3. The need of urinating in sleep could send impulses to the brain and may caused

misintepretation of the brain to a signal that arouses the penis.

So, with respect to above, I have constructed some reasoning why do OUR (I know it's not just me, and if you don't have the same problem that means you're erectile dysfunctional) penis erects during being sleepy.

Note that guys have erection not just because they are aroused by the girl's charm. No it does not work on most of us, including me. No I am not lying. Also, if you happened to be alluring in front of us and we didn't react the way you wanted, that doesn't mean we are faggots. We just don't care.

Back to the subject matter, erection may promotes sleepiness. As we are sleepy, we experience erection, thus, the erection will work like a positive feedback mechanism having to increase the level of sleepines. This is for the reason that erection of the penis occurs by having the penis blood vessels pumping with maximum amount of blood. It's muscle miracle tremendously work with the force of blood! As the rich in oxygen blood is pumping in the penis region, less oxygenated blood will flow to the brain due to the difference in location. Thus, less oxygenated blood to the brain will increase the oxygen demand of the brain and causes sleepiness.

What stays a mystery is to undo the erection so that more oxygen may be supplied to the brain. Urban myths said that you would need to knock on your knee cap rapidly. I've tried and it doesn't work. Some said think of homeless people but the brain is too slow to picture such. Extremist would put minyak cap kapak on their As-Syafah or worst, sticking it with a friggin pencil! Plus, having erection is not at all convenience as we need to cover them from girls and there's never a bigger size brief ;)

"And pretty soon all my trouble will pass 'cause I'm in su-su-su-su-su-su-su-su-su-su-sugartown"

The Force

2010-07-27T22:52:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the previous emo post. This could might make it up to you. It's something that I worked a few minutes ago. Enjoy :)

"I can only protect you but I can't fight a war for you"

Insomniac

2010-07-27T05:44:00.004+08:00

The past 4 nights had finally roll me into a conclusion that I might be mildly insomniac. Well, perhaps the number ain't big enough but I think this is a problem. I think I need help. For the past 4 nights, the earliest I would sleep is past 3am and like now, 5:47am I am not yet asleep. Why, you ask? Well, to put it in a nutshell, 4 days ago I just lost myself a million, RM of course. I am on a brink of danger as my RM 1 million worth of scholarship is pulling away from me. So you lost a million bucks, try sleeping with that thoughts!

So what did I do the whole night? Oh no no. Don't get the funny idea. I wasn't streaming and wanking through Brianna Banks or Audrey Bitoni. Yeah, I know, some of you does. Oh btw, a little detour here:

I was at Starbucks with my mom, then it took quite a long time for my friggin Caramel Macchiato (I bet the barista was too busy doing nothing), so I went for some magazine. From the magazines that they got there I'm sure they purposely want guys to have hard on. Well, you know, some caffeine kicking in and a few 'stimulating' magazines. So I reached for FHM (obviously I chosed the one with the hottest girl on the cover). Then I went back and sat with my mom STILL waiting for my drink (which haven't done yet. Baster barista.). Then I opened up the magazine around the middle page then POOF! came out a two pages of Sasha Grey as the guest of FHM. Then the following conversation took place:

My mom (being a mom): Sapa tu? Artist ke?
Me (nervously): Erm.. Eh, Taklah, Pelakon.

So guys, when you happened to open a magazine and a pornstar suprisingly featured on it, don't act surprised or your mom might reacted the same. Oh and yea, Sasha Grey wasn't that revealing, for her I guess. Go ahead, click that name.

Anyhow, what I did tonight was that I watched Evan Almighty and also The Bucket's List. Well, I gotta get my mind off something so why not hit on some inspirational movies, huh? The Bucket's List moved me. Seriously. Seriously. It did took me someplace for a while. Made me rethink about life and the whole purpose, you know, those re-ass-ess things. Then again, in the end I still can't get a nice shut eye. I encountered this a few times like when I'm going out late at night and I don't feel like going back early, or when you're playing a nice online game, or when you just out having sex, or when you're hanging with some friends without worrying a shit about the world, or just a decent conversation on the phone with your girlfriend. The stuff that made you feel something is undone, you just can't sleep yet (doing assignments are excluded). Oh and I made up the sex part. Never had them. Seriously. Seriously.

Then I thought maybe it's the Nifsu Syaaban. It's 15th of Syaaban and it is said that on this night, the Muslims believe that the angels (Malaikat) would bring up our deeds book and bring down a new one for a new chapter. I guess I was just nervous how my last call for the year might end up but hey, whadya know, a new book is coming down now. Or has came. Ntah.

So refused to hit the blanky, I went down to munch a mini Cornetto. Fine, I lied. I had six of em. Poured some rootbeer in the rebellious stomach while tuning in to Simpsons. Then a couple of few shows.

Then I thought, what really made my mind conspicuously active tonight? Then I realised, perhaps maybe I am not conversing with anyone. When I am not conversing with anyone, I feel lonely. When I'm lonely I might be missing stuff or people or someone. Then it occured to me that I do need help.

"A princess can kiss a toad"
"Frog"
"Toad"
"Frog"
"Toad, frog, lobster, they're all the same"

God

2010-07-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

"If there is a reason behind this, I'm begging You, give me at least a hint".

Highly Faggy

2010-07-22T19:11:00.003+08:00

Caution! This post may ridiculously makes me sound like a fag. The truth is I am not. I just had some crappy things that I went thru for the couple weeks.

So I decided to do what I was supposed to do the last 2 weeks. Get my life sorted out. See! Doesn't that makes me sound like a fag? SO, I started with something small. I rearranged my room and keep some old stuff into boxes.

That is when I stumbled upon my bad habit. You see, There was this time when my college had an event of teachers visiting students' room to know them by nature or what-some-shit. So there was this one English teacher who went into my room. Then she was suprised with the things I had in my room. Apparently, I have too many junks that I kept. So she said,"Manul, I can tell that you have a very high affinity towards something and that you just can't let things go easily. Learn to let go". The she kept on jabbering about forgetting the past and so on. Back then I realised, she was totally right. I have problems with letting things go.

So back to the story that I was rearranging my room, I stumbled upon many things that I never knew I had but all of them meant something to me. Stacks of movie tickets, cards, photos, some IPTA offer packages, wrappers of presents from high school even to the smallest part of papers with writing from my friends. I really have a problem of letting go, I do. I guess that maybe I have the tendency to live in the past and forever regret any wrong turns that I've made. I really think I need help.

The climax of sorting out was when I found this one box. It meant a lot to me (gosh, stop being a fag!). It was the box of my DSLR Nikon D40x kit. For those that don't know, my DSLR was stolen together with some other valuables when my house got broke in last time in Melawati.

Then it came to me, was it the DSLR that gives me this crappy feelings when I'm holding the box or was it something else that I've lost?

This is a very dissapointment post as it is so intensely emotional and there is no nudity, which is something like Twilight: Saga.

Whitewash

2010-07-22T14:20:00.005+08:00

Hold your horses! I'm still around and alive.

Dear IB students, we all know the ToK issue that had been befallen upon us, eh? Well I would like to apologize if such problem was from the likes of me. Oh no, not my fault? Okay, so here how it goes. There was this idiotic compulsive individual whom blame the ToK issue was the fault of those whom had been accused of malpractice. Nice way of putting it, huh? Dude, don't let me slap you with my dick.

So, World Cup! Ain't too late to talk about it? Kudos to the Spaniards for winning the cup of life, heck, kudos to them on the effort that roll 'em into the final for the first time. Torres and Villa upfront, Xabi and Iniesta playmaking in the middle, Puyol and Pique at the back and Casillas stood in awareness. I was rooting for Espana all along as I gave up on Italy due to their aging squad, inexperienced newcomers, and Buffon's injury. It was great football on the final, eh? Oranje and Espana. However, I think the highlight was on the FIFA-listed referee, Howard Webb which some would rather call him a douchebag.

Oh yeah, have I mentioned to you that I missed my opportunity to study medicine in Ireland? Yup, I was on scholarship and I didn't make the cut. Tough luck. Currently, I'm waiting for local offers. Pray for me will yea?

Congratulation to those whom succeed. You have my respect. For those whom didn't make it, no no, things do not happened for reason and those shit. They're just telling you that to make you feel better but you're dumb enough to fell for it, kinda like a euphemism of life. Let me break it down to you. NO SHIT, things do not happened for reason. YOU put the efforts in to make it happened. Your previous effort was dimshit. Punch in more, will yea? You don't wanna be alleged butt-fucking twice dontcha? Do you think things happened for reason to him?

Ladies and gentlefaggots, enough about me, so what about you? How's life treating you? :)

Planet Hoth

2010-05-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

And so today was an enduring journey when at first my dream voyaging in AT-AT on the Planet Hoth was devastated by my mom.

Then comes the morning drive, heading to Kuantan. Do you know that a homo sapient called Manul was born in Kuantan? Yes, it was my birthplace.

And so I cruise along the empty road and reached Kuantan. However, I find its hard to call back my memory of the place where my mom and my sisters managed to. Well, it can't be because of my childhood issue (not that I have any) but perhaps due to my weak and jaded mind. Or just maybe, ignorant.

My apology to my peers in Kuantan for not contacting you guys but act upon an agreement that it was a family time.

So there were Mc Donald's breakfast at the beach, filling up the shopping cart and watching Shrek 3D. I was kinda amused when in the movie, the song from Carpenters came up (Top Of The World) and the sound of Stevie Wonder's young voice assisting the cast at the end of the movie.

The journey back were mostly pee pee and pee. I had too much drinks. Oh, and its nothing big but I saw a dead man on the road. Yes, there was an accident and the man died. Well, I just know it because he was covered by somewhat of cloth by his friends whereby the police are nowhere to be seen YET.

Looking forward for the Langkawi trip :). Hope things will go smoooooothly.

p/s: i fucking i hate the radio for playing the same song over and over again. that is why i do not listen to the radio.

Pick Up The Pieces

2010-05-26T15:19:00.003+08:00

Well, gotta be honest witthya. I'm not sure where to begin..
My blog and my Facebook had been untouched for almost half a year.
Apart from eradicating child labour in poverty stricken country, what happened for the pass 6 months had quite been a disaster, but it ain't that bad as there are still spaces for happiness.

IB had been a bitch of course. When i thought my 2 years of misery had come to an end, my intention of shouting the lame phrases "It's done" or "Freedom" or "Would you smell that? It's the smell of freedom" after my last paper (Statistics) was pilfered from this weary and jaded body and soul :(

Dreadful. I was accused of malpractice of an assignment that had been assigned, SIX months ago. It is merely because a few lines of GENERAL IDEA had been unquoted. And so I had to explained to IBO that it had all been a silly mistake that i took for granted and please just give my frigin' diploma and just go back and do whatcha hafta do...

I had also found a new discovery that social skills could be inversely proportional over time if it left stagnant. I realized that my social skills remained stagnant in a very (by very, i mean VERY) confined space. Now, i admit of such disorder called Selective Mutism.

So, the EPL has ended and we all are making room for the World Cup. The Kop doesn't ends top 4 like what Rafa would had promised us. Liverpool had lost Aurelio recently and rumors said that it'll be soon Torres and Benayoun. OH and kudos to Chelsea for the championship in EPL and kudos to Inter for having their name carved on the Champion's League trophy for over 45 years now. As of the World Cup, my current team The Azzuris had shown some signs of aging and I might had lost hope in them. So the Spaniard might wanna make a room for a fan to squeeze in. Then again, it is to be think over. Yes, such matter is serious. The Italians don't tolerate treachery.

Apart from that, now that I have more time in my life as i would not need to read academic books and do maths, I shall fill my time with tonnes of things that I had wish to do.

Watch and watch and watch. Catch all of the latest movie, watch Gigs and Gigs of movies in my hard disk, and new muse: The Big Bang Theory.
Read, read and read. Catch up with all the books that I had been holding myself back from reading. Current: Animal Farm by George Orwell.
Play and play and play. Defense of The Ancients, Modern Warfare II, replay Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy and all the crap that involse joystick and keyboards.
And do some other things.

Personal: My relationship had reached to 4 years the day my IB ends. Urgh. The irony. I pray to God that it'll last more :)

And i had come a thought, that i might soon abolish my blog. Well, I might have some friends whom encountered unwanted occurrence like perhaps being track by overprotective parents or being filed through the police for abusing others or perhaps being questioned by the ISA for metamorphosed Malaysia as Bolenesia. Plus, its not like my blog had eradicated poverty in India, or aid in the found of new cure for HIV, or perhaps halted child working in sweatshops. I shall think of this.

It doesn't even matter.

2010-03-15T22:27:00.004+08:00

I would further like to start by apologizing to myself for not updating the blog.

Well, things aren't always as exubarant as it may seemed before. (I know in your mind, there's that tone, "well, fuck you things are hard for me too these days and you're not the only one whom facing the shit")

Indubitably, we all have that turning point in our lives. You faced it, you're facing it or perhaps you will. I know I'm facing it now.

*Note: this is the same boring shit that you all read in everyone's friggin' blog. Not some mind-blowing piece of a (I swear too much).

It's not only about throwing your dice for a seven or put down a royal flush. It's about getting your cards right. I haven't got mine right yet but I know I will. Y'all will.

You know, when you try so hard and you got so far. In the end, it doesn't even matter.

Piece-of-shit Linkin Park. IT DOES MATTER!

Oh, enough about me, let's talk about health or weather :)

Consider me DEAD!

2010-01-04T17:30:00.002+08:00

04th Jan 2010

"9300 words to be written, 4 literature novels to be read and studied, and one and a half year syllabus of 6 subjects to be studied"

Hello 2010!

2009-12-31T12:21:00.003+08:00

New Years Resolution..

Do not ask me for one. I have no resolutions. Oh no not me, I'm doing it my way ;)

Oh, and where to bound on new year? I'll be friggin driving for some number of hours on midnight.

HAPPY NEW YEAR and good luck with all the resolutions :)

Balls 'em

2009-12-28T20:44:00.005+08:00

Generally speaking, male always have a thing for round-shaped items.
They love to kick 'em, throw 'em, bounce 'em, chip 'em, bat 'em, hold 'em, squeeze 'em, grab 'em *cough*cough* enough said, I guess..

Observe, football, basketball, baseball and all other balls. Men are affiliated to balls. Unlike female, they enjoy balls in some circumstances.

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It was supercalistically nice to have the oppurtunity to get back to the sport that I had left for quite some time.

The green scenery, the range sign (150yrds etc.), the voice of the people talking and laughing at each others' sophisticated and lame jokes, the people showing off their skills, the lines formed on my palm, the blue veins sticking out to my thumb, the muscle pain, the nice sweet sound of the friction between the graphite iron 3 and the ball, the backache, the complicated physics, the techniques, the sparks formed , the distance where the ball went and a quality time with my own father.

Ahh.. Sweet golf.

Expect this!

2009-12-22T19:31:00.005+08:00

Do you realised that people with different culture have that goggle of different views. Well, maybe they are coherent with each pther or some sort but yet they are still different. You see, we can somehow see this evidence in the movie industry. Observe:

Malay movie: The good gone bad OR the bad gone good OR that someone WILL die.
e.g: the bad disobeyed the mom, the mom's dead, the bad repent to be the good.

English movie: The protagonist is always there at the most crucial times with the right sound effects or music with it.
e.g: Super-whatsoever came at the right time to save Lois Jeans.

Hindi movie: Male and female falls in love and they became lovey dovey. Started to sing and so on but then something tear them apart. They will then make effort and everything ends with a happily ever after (or else the cinema will get torched).
e.g: a male from a poor family falls in love with a female from a rich family.

Tamil movies: DUSH! DUSH! All you get is a bang bang fight. DUSH!
e.g: N/A

Disney's movie: Everything is A-Okay and out of a sudden, a big trouble comes but then everything is settled at the end :).
e.g: the toys live happily until a friend is being kidnap then they went for an adventure to save the friend and he is then saved :).

French movie: They fall in love, they kiss, they make out, they copulate. Softporn.
e.g: Ma cherie, mi amour (fuckfuckfuck)

Japanese movie: Man being sexually confused.
e.g: a boy falls for a colleague in a boy's school.

Korean movie: Pathetic love story. One of the lover is dying and they will cherish whatever bullshit they have.
e.g: N/A

Indonesian movie: It's all about being religious that God will give back what you give.

Thailand movie: It's mainly about students being fags, lesbos or transsexual.

Movie made by jews: AWESOME. PERIOD.
e.g: Steven Spielberg, Hank Azaria, Sacha Baron Cohen,

SHIFT_the way you move

2009-12-17T16:01:00.003+08:00

It was rather unfortunate for The Kop as they could finish off with a tide but then Johnson lead to a very careless own goal. Rather unprofessional but shit happens.

For all it's worth, I congratulate The Gunners for their winning. A great game indeed, worth of a commentary. With Kuyt there at the right time as he always had been and the little Russian Arshavin scored courageously. A former Kop, Xabi Alonso was also there to witness the battle between the 2 of the big four. Kudos to the Kop and the Gunners for the worth-watching game.

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Liverpool against Wigan Athletics in Anfield.

I did not managed to watch the first half but the second half was spectacular! Beautiful as a football match should be.

What interest me the most is the change of system for the Liverpool side. Reina, Agger (birthday boy on that day), Skrtl, Carragher, Mascherano, Aurelio, Insua, Benayoun, Kuyt, Gerrard, and Ngog. Eh, did I missed anyone? Oh yeah! Lucas. No he was not in at first! I know, suprising eh? Lucas was not in. No he wasn't injured or anything. He's just not in. Ngee..

So the change of system was pretty much the abscent of Lucas and Ngog as the 1 in the formation. The system then later on changed with Aurelio out and Lucas in so as Ngog out and subbed by spaniard Torres and Benayoun out for the so called super sub, italian Aurelio.

It was the 100th appearance of the pretty boy Torres for Liverpool. Having to scored 34 goals in 36 games in the EPL, I say that is pretty much impressive. Equipped with Nike Total 90, it wasn't enought thought for him as he hit the statistic to be 35 goals in 36 games in EPL as he wonderfully scored the double deflection ball against Wigan today. Beautiful.

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Note:

There was a part where the commentator did a funny bit.

"A decent defence by the douche, (pause) dutchmen".

Seriously it was funny if you hear it by yourself.

Beast of the Boulevard

2009-12-16T17:35:00.005+08:00

Lotsa people wonder how they're gonna, you know, pull the string, you know, well, end it all, you know, - die. Well, (next statement is higly controversial) I consider myself lucky because due to some events, I managed to dug up a bit on a few plausible means of me dying. As ironic as it sounds this is no black magic or some tarrot card shit or anything it just got me figured.

Number one on the list. Highly plausible. Colon-cancer. It runs in the blood. My late grandfather died of it and some other causes are quite much leading me to having one.
Lung cancer. Having weak lung due to asthma and the harmful subtances that the world provide us, it is highly possible if I were to stay in a cold part of the world (like New Zealand perhaps) which thank God I am now in Malaysia. Tropical.
Diabetes. This is due to my craveness over anything sweet. If it's not sweet that I'm never gonna eat it. High sugar level could inable my insulin to be properly working.
Cardiac failure. Angina or whatever medical terms created to eufamised it. This is due to the diet that I practice and some other causes like stressed over on something that is actually small and no biggadeal.
Mechanical accident (cars and so on). Malaysia states one of the highest average death rate of car accidents.
Assasinated for being a cunning billionaire whom work his fortune all the way by stealing millions of people's lives by creating a genetically modified virus which I only have the cure and that it fell into some other party's hand.
Killed by my own genetically modified virus that were purposely made to make myself a billionaire.
Attacked, violated and broke by a bear in the woods.
Killed by my own wife for infidelity. I don't think I'm capable but some people just made it sound like its possible.
Took my own life for failing IB and that MARA took back the scholarship.

The post is fictitious (except that it had something to do with myself). Any similarities and resemblances are merely coincidence.

Sweetest sin

2009-12-13T19:08:00.004+08:00

I remember the first day we met. It was like yesterday as I still taste it on my tongue. I was not very fond of you back then. Until I witness such charge that I need another touch, another taste, another fix. Then I knew, it ain't lust, it's love.

I started to make time with you once a day. Gradually it became three times a day up to a point that I just had to be with you for six to eight times a day. It was never enough. The presence of you, where every move and each impulse brings clarity and to stay like this is all that I ever need. If I'm lying I'm dying, I just can't have enough of you.

Every good things comes with a price. Our bond were challenged by so many obstacles. My parents disapproved you. My siblings too. Some of my relatives and friends too. However some likes you very much and even had the balls to said that they wanted you as theirs. Damn, was I jealoused. Then we rendevouz secretly without them knowing. Remember those times when sneaked in? Memories.

Then the challenged took its toll on me. I couldn't bare it on my shoulder and that is when I let you go. I let you went away. It was a long period of time and a day is like forever. Then time managed to heal me. I beginning to forget about you. Your smell, the touch on my lips, and your warm presence in my trouble. You were there when I was in trouble. You were there to hear every bit of my uttered word of wisdom and hatred.

I was fine when you were not around. I was a whole new man as happy as a king until one day. You showed up. You had th guts to show up in front of my naked eye. You were with my friends. Tempting me into your vicious trap. And so..
I fell back into you. Not knowing all the good things I could had without you around, I was purely blinded by you. I let my guard down and I fell for you again. So we spent time together most of the times. Hang out with our friends.

Then I knew now that I should have not fallen into you again. I realised how your evil trick works. I will put in my best effort not to fall into you again. No, not this time. Not the third time. I understand your scheme. I know them well. You too began to deteriorate my health, making me burn myself inside with every bit of your presence. You made my heart pops. You made me out of breathe with your charm. No! I'm no fool anymore. I will now resist you. I've found a new muse.

Thanks for the memories eventhough they wasn't so great. No, I don't love you. I hate you now. I do. If only you're human.

Goodbye, Dunhill, Marlboro and Winston. I'm stopping for real.

Square root of three.

2009-12-12T02:32:00.002+08:00

I fear that I will always be a lonely number like root three,

A three is all that's good and right,

Why must my three keep out of sight,

Beneath a vicious square root sign?

I wish instead I were a nine,

For nine could thwart this evil trick,

With just some quick arithmetic.

And now I never see the sun,

As 1.7321.

Such is my reality,

A sad irrationality,

When, hark, what is this I see?

Another square root of a three,

Has quitely come waltzing by,

Together now we multiply,

To form a number we prefer,

Rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our mortal bond,

And with a wave of magic wands,

Our square root sign become unglued,

And love for me has been renewed.

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Huh, I'm still a square root of three. None has been renewed.

Help!

2009-12-06T21:17:00.004+08:00

Dashboard Confessional came out with a new album, Alter The Ending! Tunes to listen to:

Belle of The Boulevard

Even Now

Alter The Ending

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Honestly, right now I'm not sure what to feel. No, it's not the exam. I'm not looking foward to stay here, I'm not looking forward for the hols, I'm not looking forward for placement result, I'm just not sure what I have in mind. However, I do know that I am confused. Drop dead confused. Help!

Is it Saturday? Oh it's Sunday.

2009-12-06T01:10:00.006+08:00

It gets interesting as you read further. Seriously.

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The boring part (you may skip this if you wish, no I won't get offended)

As mentioned previously, I am in the brink of the 3rd Semester examination (no, not the finals yet!). 2 Biology papers had passed and it was unpredictably hard. So as 2 Business and Management papers done and I was ill at ease that some said it was easy but the furthest that I thought I can go is 5 (it's a C). With few more papers coming, I'm not sure whether I'll live. Do not be suprised if the headline of a newspaper or tabloid come out with "Deadboy in campus".

I know it's the exam but the fact that The Blackburn Rovers won against Chelsea hooked me into watching The Rovers against Liverpool.

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Now we go down to business.

3:31 mins, was the first ambitious try by Emerton. I could literally fell asleep during the first half as both side were teasing each other trying to win possession with a sloth-kind-of-pace. I wondered before the match, Torres still taking care of his precious groin, Babel is out for his ankle injury, so who is playing foward? Voronin? Ah, Rafa wouldn't put him there. Suprisingly, it's our captain Gerrard who took the 1 in the 4-5-1 formation. The first half potraits The Rovers tactical playing and The Kop were playing as if they were having a training. Gerrard with the responsibility as a the striker, make his effort to carry the burden on his shoulder (more to like on his leg) but then again it is obviously seen that he is better as a skipper. A wonderful space was given to him but then he failed to score one at 37 minutes.

The second half? Having slow tempo during the first half, both team played with a faster pace on the second half. What kills me the most is that lots and lots of chances were wasted down the drain. Some said it was the caused of Ngog whom took over Reira responsibility in second half. The highlight was the perfect chance for scoring created for Liverpool. Johnson perfectly made his way into the box and an accurate pass was made to Ngog. So he shoot and the ball hit the top post instead of the net of the goal. It was full of suspense! Other substitution was El-Zhar for the Israeli Benayoun on the Kop's side.

The only booking was made in the game was a yellow card of El-Hadji Diouf on the Rover's side.

All and all, the spaniard Reina had a lot of saves and they were a piece of cake to him. None was penetrated into The Merseysider goal. The former Chelsea, Di Santo played well too having a lot of try and possession for Blackburn. The man of the match was obviously Johnson. Defended well, playing as the wing beautifully and created many chances. It was obvious that the kid rocks pretty much that evening.

Congratulation to The Gunners for their winning against Stoke City :)

Oh and what's up with Man City? livescore.com just showed Adebayor made an own goal.

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Oh, it's great to see you smile :)
You know who you are.

PES 2010

2009-11-30T00:19:00.004+08:00

And so my Eid Adha was filled by spending time driving 3 days consecutively. Any interesting details will be updated soon ;)

For now, 3RD SEM EXAM!!!

Congratulation to Merseyside Red for the 2-nil win against the Merseyside Blue! No commentary on this one, missed the game thanks to the coming exam for biology prep.

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Pro Evolution Soccer 2010, in no doubt. Friggin Superduperly Awesome.
Having all the player in their recent clubs position, it's worth playing rather than watching New Moon (pfft, anything is worth doing than that).
Fav team: Liverpool and Manchester City
No offence, The Gunners suck in the game but you guys still rock in real life unlike ........ :)

Oh yea examination, end your torment soon so I can enjoy nice PES playing with my brother and my cousin.

Orgasmic

2009-11-23T17:27:00.008+08:00

Pfft! I was planning on writing this on Sunday but couldn't steal the right time. My Business IA have to be improved (there's no issue in my business commentary) so I figure that I'll write a match commentary instead!

Before that, A bar of MARS a day helps you work, rest and play! :)

A hard day could be so reviving with the presence of MARS. It was so orgasmic. (It had been a while sinced Koperasi actually sells MARS.

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It was obvious that Rafa shaked absolutely inside. The Spaniard may also had some shots before he stepped on the field as his appereance could lead us to such assumption. The rosy cheeks are more to pitchfork red this time as his career is clinging on a few more matches including this match against Manchester City. The walking dead, indeed.

The lead goal looks promising as The Kop thought they could retain the goal by playing defensive. Yet, they were absolutely wrong. Skrtel had to tried twice of his header ability (provided that he is bald) to actually obtained a goal. The first piece taking was taken by Gerrard, accurately falls in Skrtel's area but he then failed to deliver a nice header as a starting goal. However, a few minutes later, dejavu strikes as the piece taking was then again taken by Gerrard, with the same accuracy falls into Skrtel's possession which he then delivered a great header having the ball sharply strike the ground and bounce back making Given a foolish goalkeeper trying to reach for nothing but air. Skrtel secure a lead for Liverpool and having the role of marking Adebayor, the speedy Man City player.

Not just Skrtel whom had his chance. The Merseysider captain, Gerrard a couple of chances which he misses the target by a few inches or centimetres, perhaps. Two longshots (typical Gerrard style) was saved by Given. All and all, Gerrard performed uberly well that day. Way to go, captain!

The exuberant moment of leading ends with a copycat goal from Mark Hughes' men. A corner, taken by Bellamy, made its way through to Adebayor having him the perfect chance for a header. Dummied, Reina failed to have a catch. Adebayor was obviously marked by two men, knowing his potential. Skrtel and Carragher took the role but then during the corner, Carragher was off to mark another player leaving Skrtel behind only with Adebayor. Ironically, it was Skrtel whom scored the goal and it was him whom failed to defend the ball from Adebayor during the piece-taking. Camera focused on him showing his enmity towards Adebayor's action.

1-all on the board giving Liverpool the pressure because their expectation was lifted high due to the team ability of playing well as the home team. Having the privilaged, The Kops' hope was crushed by a sudden strike by Ireland on the 85th minute. the fans were dissapointed nailed to the Anfield's chairs. Contrast to the fans, Liverpool players striked back with a sudden counter having Benayoun to slide his lovely left leg for an equalizer! There it was 2-all!

One of the most-talk-about-events of the match was the hex of injuries upon the Liverpool players. Torres, the key player was out for a groin injuries and so as the one whom always play on the side, Johnson. During the match itself, Liverpool fans had to watch their defender Agger being stretchered for a concussion for five stitches in the head. The misfortunate player was then substituted with the Greece captain, Kyrgiakos. Babel then too suffered from an ankle injury during the match by an accident of a teammate. Babel was then subbed with Yossi Benayoun.

The game keeps on getting interesting with bookings for Lucas, and Mascherano Italian act. Other than that, there was a last minute ambitious try by Bellamy. The last subbed was done, Benayoun out and Aurelio in for a free kick but wasted. The ball then goes for a corner, with Gerrard having to be the piece taker. Another corner! Aurelio took it but the 4 minute man failed to uplift his name. The game ended right after the last corner. Just like the MARS, it was orgasmic ;)

A tie is never a satisfaction for Liverpool having to play on their own ground. Rafa immediately made a public statement that they can finish as top four at least for the league. Well Rafa, you better be or Manchini might be sitting there at your place eating his chewing gum.

You'll Never Walk Alone!

It's not a ghost it's a pervert.

2009-11-21T10:53:00.005+08:00

So another ugly weekend in the college. Down with a flu and depressed as sun of a gun.

Spent the Friday night watching Push, a movie (the only cast that I know is Dakota Fanning),
rumors states that the movie effects were made by Malaysian by our very own film industry company, Grand Brilliance. As impossible as it may seemed I checked and Grand Brilliance was credited. At first I thought the Malaysians purposely claimed theirs as thats what Malaysians always do. Pfft.

So I slept afterwards hoping to dream that I could possess telekinetics power to move things around by my own will and to make out with a half-dying-drug-addict-looking-chick whom can control my mind.. Not.

ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz

I felt a jolt and I woke up. Crap. I swear it was so disturbing. I check on the time and it was 4:++ a.m. as I remember. I cant barely breathe. This is not a methaphor shit as I really cant breathe. Asthma attack. Then I remember I left the inhaler in my room upstairs. With the will that I have, (I dont wanna die yet as I have not repent for my wrong doings. Oh God, forgive me for I have sinned each and every day), so I brought myself upstairs and I saw something peculiar at the Lorong Mida' (figure out yourself where Lorong Mida' is. DUH).

I swear to God I do not make this shit up but I did saw it with my own naked eyes. A guy was running from Lorong Mida' with white blanket on. I saw him and he saw me. He then tried to run away by making himself camouflaged near Abang Man's house but my view were just to wide I can still see him or maybe he is just a dumb ass as white does not camouflage with the dark, dumbo. Then he decided to ran down towards the block and reached behind the B block. I saw the guy wearing a t and a shorts covered with a white blanket.

I figure, he must had been back from the F block or he had just make out with some girl at Lorong Mida' or perhaps he had make out with a banshee (well, you know these modern days). Correct me if im wrong as is there any more possibilities why a guy ran his way from being recognized? I could had chase him and made him scat in his pants but I choosed not to.

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"wey, maybe dia hantu kot".

"bukan bodoh. orang, aku nampak kot".

"maybe dia hantu and dia takut kau sebab dia ingat kau takot dia".

"hantu tak takot aku, Naim".

I dedicate this to you

2009-11-18T12:46:00.004+08:00

I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles
And the heavens open every time she smiles
And when I come to her, that's where I belong
I'm running to her like a river's song

She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She's got a fine sense of humor when I'm feeling low down
And when I come to her when the sun goes down
Take away my trouble, take away my grief
Take away my heartache in the night like a thief

Yes, I need her in the daytime
Yes, I need her in the night

And when I'm returning from so far away
She gives me some sweet lovin' brighten up my day
It'll make me feel righteous, make me feel whole
Make me feel mellow down into my soul.

This is for you, Mama :).
Thank God the operation went well.

Get well soon!
Your son misses you :)

Slit my wrist

2009-11-09T03:01:00.005+08:00

I feel like Wikus turning into a fucking prawns.

I am in a red hot pot of stew. it's 3 a.m. and I still have Biology and Math tutorials to go. Not to mention, 2 lab reports. Oh, Malay presentation and all of em are due by tomorrow.

I'm an ass for procrastinating. What kills me the most is that things just started to get right and now it fell apart. I could not have at least a day to be happy? Cut me some slack.

AndwhyisthefuckingMAXISBroadbandkeepsonconvertingintoCELCOMBroadband????????!!!!!!! May I at least online in peace?

I'm not getting enough sleep and tomorrow is monday. Yes, I'm gonna be a bitch tomorrow, so beware!

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2 days to go for my placement interview. Shit that reminds me I hafta prepare 3 prepared essays and make research on the interview and for the test on that day. That just also remind me that my interview might fall on the same day or perhaps the same time as my Malay IOC!!!

If I'd die tonight, I just wanna say I love all of you. I love every bit of you guys and thanks a million for being there for me. I apologise for my wrong doings toward you.

Ditto if I'd die tomorrow. Please call the police if either one of my Biology or Math teacher is trying to kill me tomorrow. Especially to my fellow classmates. If you don't I swear I'll haunt you for the rest of my after-life.

Oh and did United won? or Chelsea? (Malay IOC: Gaya bahasa sindiran, 'sarkasme'.)

Forgive me God for I have sinned. Oh how I wish I'm elmo.

MUMMY?? :(

Crazy Love

2009-11-07T17:30:00.005+08:00

The more than a month anticipation has finally come to an end! The new Michael Buble album has been obtained. This added as my #6 Michael Buble discography for the past 6 years (I missed the last 2 years Christmas EP, Let It Snow. Yet to be found in eBay). Although the songs are mostly aged by time, Michael, together with his team and his mentor David Foster, they freshened them up notwithstanding his ability to sing contemporary songs. Again, Michael Buble is the finest artist I known so far as I've been listening to him for the past 6 years. Having sent to school by my father while listening to Michael Buble and able to sing together because both of us knew the songs as they were the songs that he listened to back then. Great songs to be shared with your love ones.

Credit goes to the person whom contributed 2 Michael Buble discographies into my collection. You've been the greatest and always the best. Thank you. I know better things awaits you in the future. Thank you.

Arson

2009-11-03T00:31:00.004+08:00

I understand that being in KMB is so stressed out. I also acknowledge the fact that some people just dont have a life and inadequate entertainment up to a point that they have nothing to do but to poke into others' business.

I pretty much heard of some unpleasant rumors lately. By some I do not mean one or two, but more. I wonder, how does the rumor spread like an arson? Who made the spark? Who catalysted it?

I'm not gonna slip in any euphemisme for this so seriously, lay your fucking finger off my business. You'd be better off studying for the friggin' IB. I know where I stand with my lil ass 29 point but then again, go study and stop gossiping.

Well, its not that I really mind about it but its not that I dont mind about it at all. One or two could still make me sit back, watch and grit my teeth but its just too much.

I know this may sound like I'm being paranoid but my ears burn when I heard unpleasant things about myself.

So, a reminder, stop fucking gossiping. If you ever had a dog I bet it would rather play catch by itself. You people make me cuss too much :)

A hell week. Liverpool lost badly against Fulham. Can't really blame anyone. Don't blame Rafa, I'm sure he knows what he's doing. Seriously, there's a silver lining on every cloud. I hope they win against Lyon this Wednesday :)

Oh, so I lost 50 bucks and I had to walk all the way from Bukit Bintang to Damai.

Standardized test on Thursday. Math. Shit.

Knew that someone that I have a heart for is having her heart for someone else. Ouch.

Lost my fucking guitar. The only one I have. Seriously I want it back.

OH, WHO DID THE ARSON OF B122? Literally an arson of the mattress B122

I officially hate listening to Secondhand Serenade.

Disturbed

2009-10-27T15:28:00.003+08:00

Thanks to a few of my friends I just got myself a 'dream cocktail' today. A mixed of everything nice and not. Gaaaahhh...

The dream was set at night. I was on a rooftop with a few fellow friends. So they were talking and all. Then a friend of mine (he-must-not-be-named) was juggling 3 oranges. For a reason I could laugh and pee in my pants at the same time. Then I was heading down when out of sudden there were tents. Pitchfork red coloured tents randomly on the ground. So I went inside one of it. It was quite dark as the only light presence is the shine from the moon. So I went and lay myself down in one of the tent. Out of all sudden a shadow was seen outside the tent. Then the tent was unzipped (whoa! dont get the wrong idea YET), and another friend of mine, well a colleague is more appropriate rather than a friend as I don't know her much, pops her head in (she-must-not-be-name). Honestly I remembered that I was not wearing decent clothing at that time so I blushly covered myself when she pops her head in. Then the magic happens, oh, I don't wanna get into the details but i remember the most when she twisted her hair on her finger. I swear I did not make this shit up but it was so fucking disturbing. Why? Some random colleague pops in my dream and hitting on me sexually, yes it is very much disturbing. The worst part is that I felt it. Then before things get too much, I woke up. Thank God :)

Post mortem:

So, the dream is a cocktail mixed of some occurences during the weekends.

The rooftop was a place that I spend time during the weekend.

The orange juggler is a friend of mine who really likes fresh orange who happens to be drinking too much of fresh orange during our hang out :).

The tents was because before I went to sleep, a friend of mine was telling me that a chick offered him some tents. Random.

The pitchfork red colour most probably because I wore red for the whole day from class to the library at night to celebrate the winning of The Kop.

The moonlight is because the study carol was on and it was right in front of my face when I was sleeping.

She-who-must-not-be-name is a colleague who I happened to walk behind her a day ago. No, I'm not a pervert and I don't have a crush or anything towards her (cause we barely even talk) but it wasnt planned, I swear to God.

The finger hair twisting took place during a memorable night. And a part of Hands Down lyric that I happened to be listening before I sleep.

And the disturbing part of the dream is because a day ago, a friend of mine was so curious on how men experienced sexually-like dream so I had to explained it to her as she was having somewhat of the same disturbing dream except that it is less obscene.

Must listen: The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice

Must watch: Closer

Watch Star Wars saga with me and I'll marry you :)

2009-10-23T00:39:00.004+08:00

No, I am not contented with what I have and no, no, no, I did not get what I want.

So, things just fall apart. Weekends are obviously never the same again. No going back home for 2 months. Prohibited to go out. Well, it's gonna be the same shit next sem.

It's all about the goddam priorities. Well, I believe that having too many priorities just make none priority.

There are nothing much to post blog about lately as its the same shit everyday in college. Stuck in emotional turmoil I am finding my way out. Well, I'm not gonna mention any hardships that I'm facing or anything because its just pathetic.

What I know is that I missed those days.

No, I don't. Then again, I do.

Hands down, why would I be bothered of doing something that I'm never good at anyway?
Might as well concentrate on something that I'm good at which is yet to be found.

I've been nothing but a wheenie whiner.

Then something stroke me. I remembered being beside the deathbed of my grandfather. I thought of what he might be thinking. I'm sure if I were in his shoes I would be regreting of what I've done and what I should have done.

So, carpe diem quam minimum credula prostero :)

Then again, I can't do it. Fuck. Good luck, Manul.

Must listen: Kasabian - Underdog.

Beautiful Day

2009-10-13T23:30:00.003+08:00

I do wonder, when will I get back on my feet? Am I being hexed?

So there were;

You got scolded by your Biology teacher in class for scoring lowest in class for Bio test with a mark of 4/36 and 5/17. Not to forget, for involving in the incident of going to the washroom when she entered the class which pretty much pissed her off.

You get all emotional and unable to be professional during a debate entitled "Social Networking Have Improved Communication". You stuttered and you're being abscent minded. You get a remark that you unlikely want to hear. Oh and you gave the guest a terrible perception about yourself.

You've just realised that you've been living in denial all this while that some things are just too late to handle.

You bump into some people that you wish you won't bump into.

And you just knew that you MIGHT not be able to pursue your study for any Med School in UK, Ireland, New Zealand and Australia as your name is not on any of the list.

You knew you only have one option left which is Czech Rep. but then you really feel that you're friggin sure you won't be going there as your name might again not be in the list and that your dad really discourage you to go to Czech Rep. and that you have to learn their language to study there, no offence.

What suprised you is, all of these events happened in a day like today.

I wonder what awaits me tomorrow. Do cut me some slack, I am begging here.

I still haven't found what I'm looking for.

2009-10-12T17:16:00.004+08:00

So the Malay A1 test is over. I managed to get it done half an hour earlier and pay the sleeping debt of last night. I did not have a nice sleep last night as I did not sleep at all. GAAAHHH!
So while everyone is struggling doing their Malay test, I took my way to the dreamland.

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I remember I was wearing a yellow crocs (which I only own the red one). So there was a bunch of kids. Oh, as I recall it looks like Sunway Lagoon. So i accidently kicked my crocs down the slide where the kids then threw it further down somekinda ledge. So I suicidely jumped to get my crocs and end up in a pool full of phony grownups. I managed to get only one side of my crocs whereas the other is still missing. Then I managed to climb up a slide from the pool. As I was at the peak, someone that I don't wanna meet is there. Crap. So we were forced to be in the same cart to go down the slide from the peak. We refused to talk to each other and I am very very contented that way :)

"Okay, masa dah tamat!".
So I woke up.

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I should go to sleep now. I thought of some dorky idea. I wish I could spend hours watching Star Wars Saga back to back with someone. Anyone up to it? Perhaps that could put a smile on my face :).

Underdog

2009-10-07T01:00:00.004+08:00

Emotion turmoil. My neurons stop sending impulses especially to the brain. Everything seems to be moving faster, lately or perhaps I am the one that ain't moving at all.

Time is what I need and time is what I don't have. I don't know how to feel. I don't know what to feel.

Gosh, this is so pessimist. Give me a reason to smile..

Teenage Dirtbag

2009-09-30T23:22:00.009+08:00

A few minutes get-away from Extended Essay. I was listening to my playlist when this song came up;

"I got two tickets to Iron Maiden baby,
come with me Friday don't say maybe,
I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby, like you".

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Then my mind started flashing into the past when the movie 'Loser' came out. It was one of the best movie I had ever watched. I remember it was the year 2000. Back then I was 10 years old if I'm not mistaken. I don't know, you do the calculation. I'm no good in math.
So it was about a guy liking a girl (I know it sounds cliche but believe me, it is not). I can't really recall the whole thing. Oh my, I wish I could watch it all again. I tried downloading it on Torrent but it failed.

Then I remember another one movie that I wish I could watch again. 'Deadman on Campus' (1998). Gosh, the movie was great. I like Cliff in particular. It's about a bunch of college students trying to make their way to graduate by having to kill a roomate for some privilage. Damn, I can't even recall that too.

Then there was this movie called 'Roadtrip' (2000). Starring the kid in Simple Plan's music video I'm Just A Kid. It's Roadtrip not Eurotrip. Eurotrip sucks like hell. It's like a softporn somesort.

I wish I could spend the weekend watching these 3 movies. Get me these movies and I'll marry you :). Seriously. or perhaps reward you with catfoods.

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These movies reminds me of the times when I'm facing identity crisis during my teenage years. I'm sure we all faced that. Not knowing who we should grow up into, not knowing what clothes should we wear, what style should we obey to or perhaps what kind of music we should like. Whereas the teenagers nowadays grow up with movies such as High School Musical, Hannah Montana and so on. No offence, but it seems less immature than what we, and by we I mean the 89s to the 91s, adopt during our identity crisis.

I remember wearing horrible over-sized clothes. I remember walking around with a bulky Sony Walkman in my pocket. Then comes the Discman. Hitting puberty, trying to look cool and popping pimples. I remember going through the phases.

However, what I find lovely is that the identity crisis means the world to me back then. The feeling of affiliated to a certain society means everything. That is like the biggest problem that we all have to face during that time. There was nothing much more than that.

But the time is over. Now all that we worry about is our Extended Essays, our Business and Economics IAs, our Pure Mathematics, all the assignments that you and I could ever imagine. Those mean the world to us now. Nothing else matter.

Well, I'd better get back to EE.

Googling

2009-09-15T23:06:00.004+08:00

6 people that I find worth Googling:

John Stith Pemberton
William Bill Shankly
Frank Lucas
J. D. Salinger
Saloth Sar (Pol Pot)
Wladziu Valentino Liberace

Google these guys. Try it. It won't bite :)

Three Cheers for Benayoun

2009-09-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

4 Liverpool - Burnley 0

Liverpool against Burnley uplifted Liverpool to a quite more comfortable level. The game was fantastic and full of drama. Started with an easy play when Burnley ambitiously tried during the start of the game (the only good try by them :p). The game becomes more dramatic as the Israelis Benayoun put in his gears for winning the game!

The first goal was a good one as Benayoun dribble along the defenders and strike it in pilfering hopes from Burnley :)

The second goal was rather unplanned. A try which deflected from the keeper into Kuyt's oppurtunity as he was there at the right time.

The third goal was a brilliant triple-tech! The strategic goal for Benayoun with the assistance of Torres and Gerrard.

Then comes the controversial part of the game. Gerrard took a free kick in a well manner which lead to Benayoun's ambitious hatrick. However, the linesman call it an offside.

Then when the pace was going faster, Benayoun comes with his hatrick. The Israeli nailed it well at a crucial time of the game which landed liverpool in a win of a great goal difference.

Benitez seems to be pretty well organized as the subs were done wonderfully. All was done during the second half. Degen was in for Johnson's place. Voronin was then substituted in, taking over Kuyt's place and the last sub was Torres for the freshleg, Ngog.

The Brazillian Lucas defended pretty well today giving Burnley a hard time trying. Not to forget, Johnson tried as what Xabi Alonso could have done or as what he himself had done at the Reebok Stadium against The Wanderers, to strike at a very unpredictable range. What awked me is typical Gerrard's next to poll score was saved beautifully by the keeper. Nevertheless, all of his piece-taking was wonderful.

Liverpool played well and they had learned their lesson. The 31 streak winning home game was broke by the Villas and no other team could ever bring them down again in Anfield because This Is Anfield :)

Fans, You'll Never Walk Alone.

Radioheadandshoulderkneesandtoes

2009-09-07T10:49:00.003+08:00

The reason why people should listen to Radiohead is that they have a variation type of acoustic. From something light to something intermediately heavy.

Artist: Radiohead

Album: The Bends

Two jumps in a week
I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy?
Flying on your motorcycle,
Watching all the ground beneath you drop
You'd kill yourself for recognition,
Kill yourself to never ever stop
You broke another mirror,
You're turning into something you are not

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation,
You will be the one who cannot talk
All your insides fall to pieces,
You just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you
When you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you,
You will be the one screaming out

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you ever had,
The best thing that you ever, ever had
It's the best thing that you ever had,
The best thing you ever had has gone away

Chasing Pavement

2009-09-03T20:48:00.005+08:00

"Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavement even if it leads no where?".

I gave up hoping on hopes. I was dissapointed millions of time before but I was insisted to give it another shot. So I hope. I did. Then I overdo it, I hope higher and it kept on getting higher. Then dissapointment made it's room in again.

Everyone got what they wanted or at least they have something. I knew I should have made my decision wisely. They said aim for the stars and you fall on the moon, it's all bullcrap. I'm falling way down than that. I knew I should have realise on where I stand. Who I am. What I'm capable of. I took it for granted. Now I know where I stand, who I am and what I'm never capable of. This is not what I had in mind when I first step my foot in this college. Things just went haywired.

I know I can't blame anyone but myself in this. How selfish of me to think this is someone elses doings. It's your own fault, Manul. It's your own fault. You could have fix everything up but you took it for granted. I'm back in square one. I've been in this situation and I made my way out but this is different. I'm out of options.

Kudos guys. You're bounded to UK, to Ireland and carry on with what I always wanted to. Again, it's my own fault and ain't it a bit too late too realise that?

It's a future matter. I had it, I had it all planned but I didn't put the pieces. No matter how much I regret it, it won't change anything much. I failed myself.

Signs

2009-08-31T09:56:00.003+08:00

I remember having a conversation with my dad a long time ago:

"Man minat antique car tak?"

"Best. Yang vintage lagi cool"

"Macam mana? Mini ke, VW ke, Benz lama?"

"Ntah. Mane2 je. Ada 4 tires and ada steering. Cukuplah"

"Ele, aircond tade tak tahan"

...

"Papa belikan Man satu nanti bila Man da ada license. Pak Teh ada Benz lama dia nak jual. Cik Ani pon ada Mini".

"Seriously??"

"Ha ah. Tapi kena la ada license dulu"

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From that on, I knew my dad promised such a price because he knew I can never ace my driving test. And so I didn't. I passed the computer test, kill me if i don't; I pass the parking, slope and 3 pointer; but I failed my on the road test TWICE. Apparently, either I was too stupid or the JPJ officers just ain't doing their job or perhaps my driving school hasn't pay the duit kopi yet.

So a year passed I didn't bother to retook after failed TWICE. I become a daredevil started to drive cars and dare myself to a limit and drove 170km/h.

So, i decided to retook the test and I had to the the slopeshit thingy all over again just because the test I took had expired. Baring with the failure in the past, I took it. Lucky me the JPJ officers fell asleep of my decent driving. I swear to God if he ever failed me, I'll cut his balls off and serve them to his family, rape his wife and kill the whole family.

So, knowing I have such intention, he passed me. *woot*woot*

Having the authority to legally drive on the road, my dad congratulates me and wishes me to drive him for any errands, except that he is in Terengganu. I'm so gonna drive his S40 at about 200km/h on the Maju Expressway or die trying.

I want my antique now. No compromise.

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HAPPY MERDEKA!

"NEGARAKU, NEGARAKU-KU

NEGARAKU, NEGARA-KU-KU"

Namewee

im so gonna be bust by ISA.

Lack of Colour

2009-08-29T12:09:00.004+08:00

It just occured to me of questioning myself, "what have I been doing for the past 19 years?".

Due to some event, I realised on how the people around me are satisfied with the life that they are having now whereas I am left perplexed.

I saw how my friends grew. The people that I was around with in about perhaps years ago. It felt like yesterday when you know something and today everything just change.

Perhaps my mind works in a way of dominance erratic instability. There are just times when you are not assured of what you want. Options should not be an option.

I like my life but there are some things missing. I want to be a part of something. I want to be a part of everything, how greedy of me. I have been doing mistakes and there are just some that can't be fixed nor to be make it up to. The clock can't be reset and the pendulum swings.

I put my music to shuffle and I can't stop at any one. All of them seems to be wrong.

What kind of crisis am I dealing with now? I am discourage, there's a lack of colour here.

Manul emodumbshit.

P/S

2009-08-24T08:22:00.003+08:00

Regarding the previous post:

I don't smoke nor watch porn. Seriously.

Seriously.

Well, not that I haven't but i don't prefer to.

Seriously.

No kidding.

Wreck of the Day

2009-08-22T14:19:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan's here. Cool. It's fasting time. I'm looking it at the bright side. It's like a losing weight program that last for a month. Ain't that bad. I think.

Well, there are quite some things that I have to lay off like:

The goodie-o 'naroo', our lingo of cigarettes.
Porn.
Porn.
Picking nose. It might be a myth though. It's not wrong to pick nose.
Oh, food and drinks.
Porn.

That should be it I think but hey! it's okay during the nights. muahahahaha.

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The first day tells it all. Im in bentong (you dont even know where that is!), woke up late trying to get done with Business IA, I thought of going to the CC to check on my facebook, farmville actually, i suck but im still playing.

So my sis, her bf and I went out. I drove confidently till my sis told me that she drove the car yesterday with fuel warning. Fuck. Fuck. Out of all sudden I felt the car 'jingle'. It was so obvious as the jingle transfered up to my balls. It does literally felt jinglish.

From nice and sensual jingling, the car started to stuttered like Wo Fei Hong and -

The enjine was off. Kapoosh. We thought it ran out of fuel so we went to fill up a 5litres mineral bottle with fuel. Coincidencely, I manage to drove it just a few metres away from the petrol station :D.

So we filled up the tank. There were still a problem. Dumbshit, the engine started but it can't , maintain itself.

Coincidencely, there was a workshop next to the petrol station. I know there were lots of coincidence happening but this is not a lie. It happened. For real.

So we went to the workshop and the it was own by an old man and he took the car for repairing. Sadly, my uncle passed by and we were caught in the act so my grandma call the old guy who happens to be the mechanics that we looked for earlier.

So the car is in repair and I walked to the Cyber Cafe to get internet access and here I am writing the post.

Happy Ramadhan :)

Loser

2009-08-18T16:53:00.000+08:00

I do not have facebook. They call me a loser =(

39.90

2009-08-09T23:45:00.006+08:00

I got this for 39.90 bucks.

Another part of my collection on Michael Buble's discographies. Been collecting since I was 13. Michael's the best! A major inspiration in my music interest.

MTV World Stage Live in Malaysia

2009-08-05T14:33:00.013+08:00

I can't believe I'm posting this but Manul is HAPPY :)

Not that he's not happy before but he's extra happy now. He's happy before as he comes with a big 'package'. Yes, I have a big package.

Oh, my supercool hun got us the MTV World Stage Live in Malaysia passes. Rock on! My hun's the best girlfriend ever :). Thanks hun :).

You, me and the music. Well, considered that it's in Sunway I'm imagining we're in wet tees.

i'm turned on.

p/s: syazana, aku dapat passes. jangan buat muka :p

but now he is not that happy because he can't find his dictionary. He left it in his fotress which was infected by either swine leftover or swine flu virus. Mofos. but he is still happy.

That Green Gentlemen

2009-08-03T19:54:00.003+08:00

Try listening to Panic! At The Disco for a change. Not a strong shot but it gives a pretty much a creamy after taste. This is That Green Gentlemen. My personal favourite would be Build God, Then We'll Talk. Go ahead, download it illegally like we all do.

Things are shaping up to be pretty odd.
Little deaths in musical beds.
So it seems I’m someone I’ve never met.

You will only hear these elegant crimes,
Fall on your ears from criminal dimes.
They spill unfound from a pretty mouth.

Everybody gets there and everybody gets their, and everybody gets their way.
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her,
Now I’m the only one to blame.

Things have changed for me, and that’s okay.
I feel the same, I’m on my way, and I say.
Things have changed for me, and that’s okay.

I want to go where everyone goes,
I want to know what everyone knows,
I want to go where everyone feels the same.

I never said I’d leave the city,
I never said I’d leave this town.
A falling out we won’t tiptoe about.

Everybody gets there and everybody gets their, and everybody gets their way.
I never said I missed her when everybody kissed her,
Now I’m the only one to blame.

Peace

2009-08-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that a fight could be resolved just because one side got turned on. How I wish wars could end that way.

Sugar free

2009-08-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

Just when I'm so clueless, my mom came to a rescue by:

giving me a sugar free Chupa Chups. She added, "tak buat tooth decay".

And so I tried, it tasted like shit.

Back to written task.. I need ideas.

Period.

2009-08-02T20:10:00.003+08:00

I just need something..

Something to start with..

My nuts are shrinking

2009-08-02T00:11:00.002+08:00

Yes, as refered to above my nuts are shrinking due to a 5 hours road trip back home. Not because of some rough sex.

I cant believe I'm saying this but I'm not glad that they have to shut the college up for a week because of the swine flu. I'm not. No I'm not kidding. I'm not glad.

They have to postponed ladies night. Well, not that I'm involve during the night but HEY IT'S PERSONAL. People went through a lot to make it a success and now they have to postponed it. Thanks to the swine flu. Terima kasih babi anda memang babi.

Apart from that, it's a week without class. Am I smart enough for that? Who's going to teach me? And the first thing when the college re-opens back, there's gonna be a motherfucking MOCK Interview. FYI, I'm not prepared.

But then again I owe the pigs for helping out complicating the virus into something that is really threatening. This dejavu of 1940 is not that bad. I know it's pretty much a bold statement but I do like the idea of H1N1. Why? Simply because,

NO FUCKING ACADEMIC DAY AND MY FATE HAS CHANGE THAT I WON'T HANG MYSELF NOR SLIT MY WRIST.

no academic day. terbaik.

iThink

2009-07-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

I think I'll go to ------...

I think I'll start a new life,

I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California,

I'm tired of the weather..

I think I'll go to ------,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...

Boston by Augustana

Harvest

2009-07-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it bothers you that you can't find the right words to really hit on what you feel.

I do think a world would be a better place if humans are free from misunderstanding. Not just that, humans should also speak in the same way regardless on what they perceive. They may speak in a different language but the message should be in the same form. A standardize form that every single human being could understand. By that, there won't be any communication breakdown. There won't be misunderstanding.

Sometimes I just wish I could understand others more. Sometimes I just wish I could give others what they ought to have. Sometimes I just wish I could provide others with the best. Sometimes I just wish that I'm doing something the right way.

Sometimes I wish I could have what I want. Sometimes I wish I shouldn't have what I want. Sometimes I wish I shouldn't have what I had. Sometimes I wish I could just not have the feeling of wanting something to have. We live in a beautiful but yet strange world. The world revolves around none accept time.

There are times when you wonder how you can carry everything on your shoulder. The time when you feel so jaded and weary. The time where you think you just can't make it. When you just don't feel anything bad about yourself because you are slowly accepting that you're just non-worthy.

It's not about giving up. It's about walking at the same place of the same pace.

I wish I could. If I could I would. I need to change.

Shooting stars..

2009-07-27T03:05:00.003+08:00

I close my eyes and "I wish for...

A biological symbiote that blend together with my blood and causes me to possess a blood-like physical body. Immune to probably anything (especially H1N1).
An amnesia.
A brand new brain that could work my way and others' at the same time; govern independently from emotion.
A day without worry.
Confidence. Period.

Human skin can be hard to live in, you'll feel better in the morning..

....

2009-07-27T02:59:00.001+08:00

Who am I kidding? I'm a fucking pessimist..

Erth, Wnd, Wter and Fre.

2009-07-27T02:41:00.003+08:00

So tell me, how can we work it out on that day when we it's time to share the gold at the end of the rainbow? I know it's not something for us to think of..

I am losing track on which way is up simply because I'm always being put down. Nay, I know I gotta be strong and do what I feel in my heart regardless of who's around. I know it might seem bold but I think that's all I have. Many centuries people are steady getting old clutchin' to what they never had.

I know I can but I know I can't. Well, you can you cunt!

Oh and Madam S,
I'm a man of my conviction, call me wrong or call me right,
But I'll bring my better angel to every fight,
You may not like where I'm going and you do know where I stand,
Hate me if you want to,
Love me if you must.

I'm doing it not as a prove to you nor anybody. I'm doing this for myself. I took their best punch.

Scratch

2009-07-22T18:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder will i make it thru?

The 2nd sem is done and people are now off with their options. I wonder what's left for me..

My gateway of going to my wonderland has closed. Tata. Shut-locked forever.
I know some of the people that wanted to pursue what I had been hoping succeed. Kudos to you all. It feels like a million bucks ain't it? You worked endlessly regardless what stands in front of you. I do admire your effort, mates. I have seen some of you putting in your best shot in every single second. I have seen some of you loop of from danger zone into a secure zone. I have seen the bounced back ability. I have seen them all. You chew it in, you spit it out and you're now in a safe zone. It's beautiful, really.

It hurts you inside. It does. Well, you can never really blame anyone or anything but yourself. I made mistake. Mistakes, to be exact and I don't dare to say that I never repeat them ever again. I am in a total wrecked now. A lot to catch up. A lot to give. A lot to sacrifice. A price to pay.

I bet you all get where you wanna be at. I'll sit here and smile congratulating at your success. As for me, it remains uncertain. I know you don't see that potential in me simply because it's just not there. It never exist or it's dead. Either.

We'll meet again one day. We talked, smiled, laughed, stare, lift our eyebrows, cried, touched, fight, kicked, played, sang, hum, whistled, jump together. It will remain as memories. So beautiful and yet maybe to painful to remember. We'll meet again one day and share stories. The lines across our face tells us stories of where we've been to where we are but not me. I simply choose to forget. I wanna start from scratch. My hope is scattered into pieces. I got nothing to tell you. None.

So get on. Get on with your perfect life. You are blessed =).

29

2009-07-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

29 million bucks,

29 hot females,

29 cool rides,

29 LV's handbags,

29 blow jobs,

29 hot shemales,

29 scoops of Baskin' Robbin,

29 Tag Heures,

29 storey-banglow,

29 girlfriends,

29 profit-making companies,

29 thousand of fans,

29 best selling books..

29 of these sounds pleasant ain't it?

It's not when you're IB point is 29.

to hell with 29

may you burn in hell.

Pancake

2009-07-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

Like a little school mate in the school yard,

we play Jackson and Uno Cards,

I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine,

yes, you can hold my hand if you want to,

'cause im gonna hold yours soon,

we'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret world..

but it's time for me to go home,

it's getting late and dark outside..

FUCK YOU

It's not a fashion statement, it's a fucking deathwish.

2009-06-13T21:42:00.003+08:00

I decided to get my ass back early a day at the college. Well, not my decision, though. I didn’t make the call. My dad did. My dad works on Sunday. Now I’m a day earlier. But hey! It ain’t that bad. Maybe I kinda need the extra time to straighten myself out.

It’s fucked up. I swear I do not make this shit up but it feels fucked up. No offence. It’s not you guys (KMBians). It’s just the place. AND. And I do not just blame the busy life of IB for it. Everything. Everything. I’m blaming every little thing that I screwed up. Well, perhaps anyone who screwed it up for me too.

A day earlier. It feels kinda nice, though. Alone in the block. I can do the naked itsy bitsy thingy. You know, running around without a single thread. Hey! It’s a free college! (Yeah, free, alright………………..

Anyhow, things that I should get excited for this sem is..
Ma cherie’s in the same college. I’ll be seeing her =D. Well, not that I have not been seeing her for long =p.

Other than that.. Herm.. Lemme see…

2nd Sem’s result? Oh no. Not excited. Fuck..

EE? Thank God I am able to do literature.

IAs…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

Interviews. MOCK or whatever-youcallit.

………………………………………………………….Motherfucker…………………………………………………………………….

I’m a self-loather..

Oh yeah, Revenge Of The Fallen!?
Shit, that doesn’t count does it?
Herm..

OHANDDONTGETTOOOOOEXCITEDTHATYOUGOTINKMB.DONTGOALLFUCKING-WEE-IGOTINKMBHOWISITTHERE?SERIOUSLY,JUNIORS.
Because it’s

HIT

Typo. Sorry.

SHIT.

Come to think about it, I don’t hate this place. Well, I don’t. But there’s just something about it that really hurting me in the crotch.

You’re gonna be okay, Manul.

Whosoever mess with me, I’ll cut your balls, mash ‘em, boil ‘em, fry ‘em and feed ‘em to the lazy fatso guard who owes people lotsa money. He also claims that he saw 'pocong'. Pocong my ass.

Oh and please stop listening to Jonas Brothers. It makes our generation viewed as fags. Seriously. You’re better well listening to Elton John or George Michael. Well, Elton John’s kinda nice. Fuckyou I’m straight.

Cheerios.

Rest In Peace

2009-06-03T17:40:00.003+08:00

Date: 2nd June 2009
Day: Badday
Time: 16:54:32
Location: Pantai Ma' Daerah

A great friend. A comrade. Always there when I'm down. Never fails to put me back on my feet. A sound from her could make me feel as happy as a bumbleebee. My eyes when I couldn't see, my light in the dark.

Songs that make you slit your wrist, songs that make you cry, songs that make you smile all night long, songs that make you believe, songs that make you seize the time, songs that make you who you are, songs that change everything the way they are..

But no force could change of what had happen. I'm gonna miss you, buddy..

It doesn't have to end this way but fate pilfered you away from my life..

Leaving me weary..

Jaded..

I'm gonna miss you..

Thank you..

I love you, iPod.

May your soul be among those whom are blessed.
Rest in peace. I love you.

Manul's iPod Nano died of drowning in the sea of salty water.

Fuck iTunes

2009-06-02T00:18:00.003+08:00

2 days and 1 night of away from home to The Turtle's Sanctuary. Gotta release the baby turtle to the sea. Hoorah I am not excited.

My only survival is my Nokia and my iPod. That is 2 days without PES. 2 days of socializing with my classmates. No offence, i love you guys. Seriously. I just hope there'll be good-o-coverage there. I need to text and call ma cherie.

Fuck my iTunes isn't working and I need to put em song!

FUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUESFUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUNESFUCKiTUNES

Oh, does anyone have the slightest idea where can I get Dashboard Confessional's album, The Shade Of Poison Trees? I've been looking for it, everywhere but i failed to find any. Please let me know. You'll be awarded. You will. No kidding. I swear. Screw you.

Jonas Brothers

2009-06-01T18:40:00.005+08:00

This is a latest discovery. A new breakthrough! Hands down, it has been approved by several research and experiments. The Faculty of Human Science in several universities had conducted a very detailed research and experiments on this issue.

This is what exactly your brain will look like after listening to JONAS BROTHERS:

No offence, jeebs.

FAGS

I wanna have your babies

2009-06-01T02:13:00.003+08:00

You fuck, you'll get babies, you'll get babies and you'll get no dough.

Seriously, having a baby can be pretty much messed up. I've seen it with my own eyes. Haven't experience it, though.

I just turned into an uncle 2 weeks ago. My sister-in-law, which is obviously married to my brother, just gave birth to a baby boy. Ahmad Arsyad is the name. They're working parents so they have extra dough for living. I did ask a couple of questions on how to manage the finance when having a baby.

Seriously, it cuts a fucking big hole in your pocket. RM 2500 just for the baby's labour. Some hundreds more for the hospital accomodation (private specialist). About RM 1000 for the baby's bed, walker stuff and all. RM 95 for an anti-colic bottle set so that breast milk can be stored innit. Well, the baby needs around 3 of em because you can never get the time to wash them for the next meal time, so total up to RM 285 for bottles. A few bucks for tate. RM 55 a week for milk. Specially formulated. Diapers! They are very very costly. The baby's tub, toileterries and etc would cost a lot too. Toys. Teeters. Tate. Rusk.

Forgive me if i sound shallow but all they can do at the time is to cry and poop. It takes hell lotsa guts to take care of a baby. A very very very large proportion of patience too. My brother's gonna kill me if he reads this.

Well, I'm conveying this to those youngsters out there who can't keep their dicks and vijayjays in their pants. Even if you have sex with condoms, there is a slight 10% the method won't be helpful. So if you did it 20 times there is a possibility that 2 times that you had sex could cost you a baby. And if those 2 times hit the jackpot (when your bang-partner is fertile), here comes your baby. The probability in average of you hitting the jackpot in a month is about 1 over 15. Do it for 15 months, you might get one too.

Fuck, I'm applying math.

Morale of the story. Think before you bang. Seriously.

Operation Theater OT

2009-05-31T20:40:00.004+08:00

2 days of CAS at Sg. Buloh Hospital. Organized entirely by ma cherie Dayana, we managed to get a close view of real life medical operations!

We were given special sterile clothes to wear and rubber footwear that looks like crocs but its uncomfortable like hell. There were no XS size for the blue scrub (fyi, Scrubs are the shirts and trousers or gowns worn by nurses, surgeons, and other operating room personnel when "scrubbing in" for surgery). So i took L. Damn it was big.

So there were 4 Operation Theaters (OTs) that we are free to enter anytime. We, ma cherie Dayana, Lyn, Bada, S and I, observed a few operations which includes skin to skin Caesarian, Masectomy for Breat Cancer, Appendix, Orthopedic etc.

We observed literally a metre away from the operation.
Hell, some looks gruesome like this guy where his hands were 'open' until you can see the bone. Or a guy's thights were sliced up. Or a women's boobs were taken out, seperate literally from her body. Or women's tummy being cut out to bring out a new born baby.

It was helluva experience. I doubt you'll get such experience easily. All and all, it was awesome! Oh, and there were this cocky nurse. Hahahaha. The best part of the whole thing is that I managed to experience it with ma cherie Dayana =D. I love her so much =x.

Then, we were off for movies =p

10 bucks

2009-05-31T20:12:00.006+08:00

This is a true story. Happened a week ago.
Time: On my way to Personal CAS, Sg. Buloh Hospital.
Location: KL Central.

Fucking crowded LRT. I mind my own business listening to my iPod.
"and then she asked me, ...tuktuk, do i look alright,
and i said yes, ... you look wonderful tonight".

I went out of the LRT. These rushers gets on my nerves. I wonder where they are heading rushing their ways and bump into people. So I went out, a black dude suddenly stand in front of me and he smiled. I unplugged my earphone. I swear I did not make this shit up, he looks fucking exactly like Akon!

Black Guy: Assalamualaikum (offering to shook hands)
Me: Waalaikumusslam
Black Guy: Oh! You're a muslim. (he looks fucking happy). You speak English?
Me: (damn right I do) oh, yes i do (nonchalantly).
Black Guy: My name is Hafiz. My mom's from Africa (and he said something about his dad i cant remember). I'm studying in UiTM Skudaiiii. blah..blah.. Accountancy.
Me: Oh, okay. My name is Luqman.
Hafiz: Oh! Luqman! That is my first name in my hometown Africa, Luqman.
Me: (Err... okay...)
Hafiz: I thought you're a Chinese just now not a muslim..
Me: (i'm not that fair to look like a chinese, dumbo).
Hafiz: But i saw your (then he touches his chin, then i assume he was trying to say beard but he can't reach for the word).
Me: Oh, hehe hehe.
Hafiz: Listen, Luqman. I want to go back to Johor but I don't have the money to buy ticket.
Me: You wanna go by airplane?
Hafiz: Yes but i don't have the money.
Me: Go by bus, it's lotta cheaper.
Hafiz: (then he started to say yes-by bus-around 40-needs money to go to Masjid Jamek-i dont want your money-borrow money-i give you my number, yes he did, i have it until now-blahblahblah)
Me: I can give you 10 bucks the most, dude. I need the money for myself.
Hafiz: Can you make it more like 20? We are muslim. When we help Allah will help us back. Who knows when you're in Johor you call me we go for coffee and huha huha (he did said huha huha). I have a classmate name Luqman. He is very funny. We like to blah blah blah with him blah blah blah.
Me: 10's the most. Sorry dude.
Hafiz: Nevermind nevermind. Thank you.
Me: You do know how to get the bus right? From here? Get the train at Masjid Jamek to Pudu.
Hafiz: Yes, thank you. Thank you. I will pay you back if you want me.
Me: Okay, gotta go.
Hafiz: I'll see you again, Luqman. Thank you.

I think i just got conned.

PES

2009-05-31T19:31:00.002+08:00

I see that my holidays are non-productive at all. I did pretty much nothing.
Things that i had accoplished:

Personal CAS, Operation Theater, Sg. Buloh Hospital. Okay, this is no shit, its helluva fun (I'll write more later on it in my other post).
Personal CAS 'melepaskan anak penyu anjuran Syarah Afiqah bt Yusoff (bukan Yuzari)', to be done tomorrow.
Police report on losing my driving test card.
Done with Cather In The Rye.
Lihatlah Ranjau Sepanjang Hayat (tak ingat nama), aku akan tawan kamu!
PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES PES
Winning Eleven
5 hours fucking bus ride.
Angels & Demons; Wolverine and I Love You, Man.
DotA

I also realised a couple of things that i ought to do for the holidays but i have not even bother to think about it until this very second:

Chemistry Lab Reports (fuck i haven't done that yet)
IA for Business and Mangement.
watch TV
get an x-ray
Have sex
Movie marathon (I did PES marathon though for 10 hours++ straight, Winning Eleven about 8 hours++ straight)
Burn fats. These fats, they're bastards.

fyi PES stands for Professional Evolution Soccer and Liverpool rocks.

LUQ

2009-05-31T18:23:00.005+08:00

The following picture has no association with Pope Luke. It is just a random Pope picture.

Well, if I were to become a pope I would consider to take the name Pope Luke too. I see myself more Luke rather than John or Benedict. Well, it crossed my mind thanks to Dan Brown.

Well, like Dan Brown stated, Luke's a physician. Well, it is quite an irony that Dan Brown ends the plot with the pope decided to choose Luke, just to show that Christian and science are compatible. Dan Brown, you can do more than that, lame.

Luke. Considered that my name contains the pronounciation of 'Luke' so it's kinda cool. But i had some dude calling me Luke well, it's Luq actually but what the heck. Plus, I'm pursuing in medical field. Ain't doctors physician? Correct me if i'm wrong.

Till Death Do Us Apart

2009-04-20T21:29:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just wish I could be there on the side of those whom are dear to me when they had their last breath. Two incidents which really moved my heart. It is such a hardship to accept the fact but nevertheless, God knows best.

The first figure. Uncle Mi. Professor Azmi Bin Abdullah. A great uncle. A loving husband. He has terrific personality. A bit of eccentric. Can be cynical. An uncle and a neighbour. A giver. Not really a taker. He never fails to amuse you. A best friend of Papa. The source of amusement for Mama. A professional golfer. A dedicated leader. A responsible colleague. A man that cannot be forget.

Died of cancer which live within him for almost 10 years. Diabetic. He carries the insulin pen everywhere. Had hepatitis B. Can't share anything with him.

I happened to be around quite a while when he was sick. He began to be hospitalised. He was shrinking all the way. I remember visiting him in the ICU. He was extremely weary but he can still afford to make jokes. A strong man he is.

It was Friday. I got back from college and I was planning to pay him a visit. They said he'd gotten worst. That there's no chances and all. So i came back home. Papa promised me to go on a visit after Isya'. So I waited. My intention was never fulfill. He had his last breath right before Isya'.

What kills me the most is that Papa visited him the day before. Well, Papa was always beside him all along together with his wife, Achik. So, Thursday. Out of all sudden on that day, he was looking for me. He asked them where could I be. So Papa told him that I'm in college and that I'll be coming back on Friday to pay a visit. But it never happened.

Another figure. My atok. Dato' Abdul Majid Bin Mohd Din. A charismatic former CPO. A dedicated figure in the Special Service. Tun Razak's aide. A strict father. A friendly grandfather. A great colleague. A joker. A smoker. Never forgets his torchlight. Always swat away the flies while eating. Never get bored watching AF (i hate AF). An awesome grandfather. The one that can never be forgotten.

Hospitalised for quite some time. Can't walk for 2 months. Failed to respond to anything for about 2 weeks. The body system encounters some malfunction. Fail to generate normally.

I get to took care of him during his sick days. I remember the sleepless night in the hospital. Trying to stay awake by washing my hands for every 10 minutes. Took care of him at home. I remember cleaning him. Lifting him. Changes his diapers. I remember the sleepless night convincing nenek to sleep in the hospital. I remember being by his side reciting Yaasin for about 5 to 6 times a day. Whispering kalimah shahadah into his ears somes. I remember being in the hospital on mama's side. When mama cried and said to me, "I think he's going". I remember hugging her and letting her know things will gradually be fine. I remember convincing nenek that she did her best. That that was the greatest. I remember not going to class for a week and missed quite a lot. I remember his last respond when i told him that I'm goin back to college to his ears and he smiled. He made an effort to smile and he uttered "okay,okay", with such a weary and soft voice.

It was Tuesday. I just got back from outing. Went down the bus. Mama called. It was just a normal concern call. I promised her I'll go back to Bentong by the weekend. I asked her how's atok was doing. She said as usual, "macam tu jelah, Dede". So off i go. I had the weekend on my mind. 20 minutes after that. I received a call from my sister, ngangah. I heard her crying. Then I knew. I just knew. He had his last breath right after Maghrib.

I failed to be around these two when they were going. Then I thought, if i pass IB. Well, IF, of course I would be going to some other country. Then, what if others turn were about to come when I was not around? I could not afford not to be by their side. What if it was Papa's, or perhaps Mama's? I could not bare the thoughts. I wanna be there. I just hafta be there.

Al-Fatihah.

Build God, Then We'll Talk

2009-03-28T11:31:00.006+08:00

Regardless the inadequate hours of sleep (thanks to Dota), I was able to complete my 9 a.m. grounded slot. Surprisingly I even attend the etiquette talk with a very much retarded looking pants, it was longer on the left side.

*I was a sore-total-loser and a bigtime noob on Dota last night.

Hurm.. Humans would normally try to worry less so that we weary less. 18 years (well, nearly 19) of my life I would prefer to say that I did more wrongs than rights. They are both either in the norm range of the society or even to the stated laws themselves, by all means and any benchmark.

Being in a life where every single step is wrong, is obviously hard. Nothing seems to be right most of the time is just too much for one. How do you live such a succulent with those kind of interference? Well, it is pretty much your own fault if you do something wrong but hey, you and I know well that nobody's flawless. Let's do each other some favour-eh? Let's cut some slack towards each other. You did wrong, I did wrong but hey ain't that even? Oh, I did more wrong? Well, that's up to you to decide and up to me to applied. Hell.

Options. Just another shit-hole trying to messed with your life up. Ever heard of the Peter's Law, The Creed of Sociopathic Obsessive Compulsive? It is stated that 'When given a choice, take both'. Hell. You can never take both options. You're stuck. Once you choose either, you're far away from another. Bastard.

Don't get me wrong that I'm all rebelious or anything. I'm just saying my heart out. When you're getting further, there won't be very much anything to cushion your heart, led fall nor the callous sighs.

When you are left with no options, you want one. Then you screw things up. Well, not you. I know I did. There'll be that time in your life where you meet a point of limitation. When you are lack of options. When you just can't do any shit.

*Am I comlicatedly vindicated or simply defensive? Fuckaroo..

P/s: Don't run after something that you'll never kill but if that is what you want then fire at will.

Pretty Mouth Blue My Eye

2009-03-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

Pretty mouth blue my eye:

BumbleeBee
Elvis Presley
Jude Law
Frank Sinatra
Optimus Prime

I'm like a doctor with the way I always trying to get off.

2009-03-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

The holiday is over. Here are couple of things that i got from the hols:

I get to see Mama and Papa for i had not seen them about almost a month. God knows how much i missed them.
I get to spend time with dayana teaching kids in rural area.
People could appreciate you so much by teaching them things that they never know and motivate them for success.
I bathed my own grandfather.
People whom make 150 bucks a month could have a family. I seriously didn't know that such poverty exist in our country. I'm not ignorant but perhaps shallow.
There were more than 5 people that I knew and met died during the holidays.
I can never save my dough.
I can drive others' car up to 120km/h without license.
I can drive others' motorcycle up to 100km/h without license.
I wish i can have my license after i failed twice.
I am not productive at all. (Not in a way that i cannot produce offspring, damn right I CAN!).
I need a goldfish/cactus. I do.
I don't think i'm cut out to be a doctor.
"You can lose what you never had".
Memories could be just another sonuvabitch that would never stop messing up with your mind.
"Just because I'm black you think i did it??".
Holy shit i haven't touch my homework!
I'm alone in the college for tonight. Literally. Alone at the concourse now. I swear i thought i saw a ghost.
I missed Melawati.
Another two months to a 3 years relationship =D.
I listen to Hillary Duff. I am now.
I still and always will hate rainy evening.
James Blunt's songs hit me in the crotch.
Dashboard Confessional can be addictive.
I have not completed my grounded slot and therefore i shall this week.
There are too many pendings in my life.
Death is getting near.
...

F.I.V.E.

2009-03-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

Mitch Albom wrote a book on '5 people you'll met in heaven'.
Well, here's Manul's version of 5 people. '5 people that should be executed for life'.

Horsemouth
Octopus
Indeginious lady
Alien
Twin Dwarves

CHERIOS~~ ^-^

succulent~

2009-03-11T20:22:00.003+08:00

I know it had almost been a month but this ain't getting outta my head.

It was a perfect night. 14th February. I know you may think it's Valentine's Day and all but na'ah. Mine was just for the sake of celebrating the love. Well, it's the only night where I can get special offers on a table for two :p. I don't celebrate Valentine's though.. ngee~~

Anyhoooow.. It was a table for two at PJ Hilton. I swear the food was terrific. What a bummer that it was buffet. It could have been better if it was served. You'll see lots of couples that night.

So, i came early (how lame that i can't pick her up considered that i failed my license twice but thank God she was okay with it). Sorry honey :(. So, there i was walking my way to the lady who then greet me and showed my way to the table. Then she browsed through the paper she was holding and uttered,"so, is Dayana coming?". So i thought, 'HELL YEAH! You got problem with me, missy?' But instead of saying it out, i answered,"yes, she'll be quite late", then i smiled to shooh her off.

I'm drop dead nervous, i swear. Can't keep my eyes of my watch. The phone rings. Ahah. Shit. She's here? So i decided to pick her off from the lobby (yeah, yeah I know i should have pick her up with a motor-fuel-powered-vehicle. Fishyou!Icantdrive.). Nervously, i walked and there she was. Looking like an angel in disguise. Oh crap. She's beautiful. I bit my own tongue! Her step was gracefully alluring and I do think my mouth was ajar open. Was it, honey? ;p
I swear you can't make this up, out of all sudden, a song played in my head.

"I feel wonderful, because I see the love light in your eyes,

and the wonder of it all,

is that you just don't realise how much I love you.."

Holy crap. Too much Eric Clapton. Gotta put it outta my head. I'm right in front of her and I was speechless and Eric Clapton wouldn't stop singing and guitar-ing! For almost 3 years we were together and these moments of mp3-ing in my head do happened at times.

It was a great night. Balloons, roses and chocolates. It had almost been 3 years since we are together, baby. Let us seize every moment of it. You and I :).

I love you Dayana Alya.

Extinction

2009-03-03T10:25:00.005+08:00

We all know, ultimately at the back of our mind that there are things in this world that should be sustained for posterity. Take petroleum for an instance, would you imagine our daily life without it?

Or perhaps Dodo. Seriously, what have that poor lil' creature ever did to all of us back then? Don't they deserve to live? I mean it is pretty much unfair =(. You're a harmless herbivore by today then soon you just 'poof' your way out! Now i know why most of us are not vegetarian..

Dinosaurs? I dig why those bloody-gore T-Rex of a kind are all extinct. They should be. We do not really want them to run around the street eating our heads off. However, those harmless dinosaurs? Triceratops and all????

Some humans are believed to be extinct too. Remember the story of Noah and his Ark? The humans are all drowned out and extinct.

If everyone wants things to be extinct, these following should be extinct notwithstanding their significance on us:

Fucking lab reports
Lame movies that I wasted my money on.
Math and Calculus?
Jonas Brothers
Khmer Rouge
Idiotic nonsensible myth
Sins
Tragedies
Bullets
International Baccalaureate

Medulla Oblongata

2009-02-19T10:41:00.012+08:00

There's a communist country that had just been found, named KMBabwe which is far far away from civilization. It is said that the country consist of tribes that practice a very dull and boring routine. However, they find it is mercurially fine to do so. A lingo created specially for them which is known as 'theygotnolife'.This specific term is said to be influenced due to their so-called-great-life (which every civilization in the world find it's mundane).

The most interesting about KMBabwe is that it is very much or perhaps too communist. I acquainted with such an experience. I have to admit it that it is pretty much pain-in-the-arse.

They have this custom which they call it the EE (real name is still under scrutiny). EE is a custom where they tend to give their best even if it means to kill each other just to get the success of it. (kiasu, perhaps)

One day i thought, what the heck, lemme try this daring custom?

Regardless the gruesome consequences, i managed to follow up the custom EE which the first step is to get an RQ (which the real name is also still under scrutiny). Done with the RQ, i decided to refer it to the goddess of the tribe (they have various tribes in the country and they tend to seggregate with regards to their tribes' interest. They suck don't they?). Anyhowww, on my way to the goddess of the tribe, i find that my RQ is irrelavant.

Due to the failure i was sentenced to meet up with the head of the goddess of all (Edgwuwu)which holds the 'blue magic leaf'. I need to get the 'blue magic leaf' in order to perform my real RQ. Shit.

However, when i first arrive at the Ibo (a type of a house where the great goddess live), i was forced to have an ID Card by a pretty much big-ass lady with a big mouth.
Thisisprettymuchapaintheasswithapinchof'bastardsity'whereifailtogettheEEformandthelotsandlotsofpeopleare'kiasuing'themselvestogetEnglishastheirEESubject.fucklottahoe.

Hands Down

2009-02-04T11:28:00.004+08:00

Dreary rain in the evening pretty much is unpleasant. Like most of us, i hate rain. Well, hate is pretty much too concrete. I don't quite hate but i don't think any word could replace the word hate to express the unlikeness of the drops of water from the sky.

I'm sorry to those who do not go about the same feeling as i feel but i am pretty much sure that there are people out there who dig me in this case.

An evening that rains surreptitiously kills me inside. Shallow perhaps, am i?

These are the causes of rainy evening on me:

Extremely able to make me gloomy for the whole day.
Unintentionally pump my hormones-to-fuck-things-up-in-a-bad-way.
Butterflies copulate in my tummy and devour the inside of me.
Ease my ears to tune to Dashboard Confessional.
Creates hatred on Chemistry books.
Makes bed the best place to be on in this world.
Muscle and joint ache.
Regular trip to the toilet (small bladder storage).

ohcanimakemywaythroughthis?

Sail the sea for eternity..

2009-01-06T11:39:00.004+08:00

The Flying Dutchmen must always have a captain. The captain must sail the sea and given eternity to collect all the dead souls and to be send to the Locker of Davy Jones' . The captain can only be on the shore for a day before the sunset in every 10 years. One must stab the captain's heart to redeem one's place of becoming the captain.

Althought eternity life is given, i do think it is still a curse. Able to be on the land only a day in about 10 years? That's absurd my friend. Turner did that in order to save his father. However, i do picture myself in the situation. I'm in KMB, my parent is in Kemaman and by the appropriateness of the situation, i can only be in my house for only a month in one semester (the Flying Ducthmen thing was clearly a hyperbole though).

It's not that bad...

Is it?

Damn, i'm gonna miss them..

Mommy, daddy ??

I'll be heading to KMB soon. Prolly be my last post for this month. A bit of tidious to go online in KMB.

Goodbye Terengganu, hello KMB ;D

A Slob.

2009-01-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

"Fo shizzle ma dizzle.."

Everyday life situation

Mama budge into the room (why didn't i lock the door as i always did, again?)
"Dede da packing belom??"

Watching Who's Line Is It Anyway via YouTube on my bed with chocolate chips on laptop which is on my tummy and a mug on my bed (yes, i look like a fucking slob.)
"Nope. Belom. Nantila. Lambat lagi".

"Lambat?? Esok da nak balik kan?! Enough with Drew Berry tu".

"Drew Carey la, Ma. Malas packing lagi. Dede demam". (Apparently, Dede is my nick to my family and i think it means 'The Third')

Then she did the poor boy thingy. Its annoying up to a point.
"Ala.. Keshian baby Mama demam blah blah blah (i did not quite catch it because i was concentrating on Ryan who's freakin' hilarious)".

"Okay-okay, saya pack now". The only way to stop her.

Esokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmbesokbalikkmb!

I have not pack yet.

I am sick.

A bit of hungry.

Wtf am i doing writing a blog? I should be packing.

A-No-Go?

2009-01-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

The time is tomorrow. Is it a no-go? I don't think so.

Seriously, i've been sniffing around and it seems to me like most of us (by us i mean the KMBians, yeah, too bad, i'm one of you) find that going back there is a no-go. Some said,

- i would rather be gay then to go back there.

- it is obviously a mental instituition.

and some other words of hatred. However,

well, a pretty bold statement to be made by myself but hey, it ain't that bad.

i mean, how bad is KMB? All this while some of us been hating the place (i'm not sure about you guys but i did) but then come to think about it again. It is not that bad. Yeah! IT IS NOT THAT BAD! (can't believe that i typed this).

Well, the only thing that i find myself uncomfortable there is that i am not doing well in my studies. Yeah, believe me, it wasn't that well. So, i'll surpass that point later on. It is not that bad, Manul. It's not. Just hafta put lotsa effort there mate! Work your ass through. In times like this i hafta think of the worst situation that had been put on others, eventually, they surpassed the point.

Michael Jackson did regardless the lost of Neverland. No regrets!

If he can do it, why can't i? If Oprah can lose hell lotta kilos, why can't i??

Come to think about it, it won't be that bad and it wasn't even that bad either.

"So, KMB,"

"YEAH" (audience applausing).

"Kaaaaaay Eeeeeeeemph Beeeeeee!"

"YEAH" (audience applausing).

"im'ma do it yaw!"

(standing ovation).

Come get some ;D

Well, i would need an excessive dosage of the following though:

1. Ma cherie's love
2. Mates
3. Dashboard Confessional's pieces
4. Russell Peters vids
5. Lots and lots of Vicodin.

Terrorism.

2009-01-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

PARENTAL ADVISORY. CAN BE RACIST.

Ever since the attack of 9/11, the States had always been haunted by terrorism. This cause them to actually legitimately take action on the act of terrorism. It is hard nowadays especially for the security in airports, customs and immegration. They really need to learn the difference between a terrorist and an indian. They're not the same!

1. They're not from the same part of the world. Middle East and India??

2. They don't speak the same language.

3. They don't eat the same food.

4. They don't even hate the same people. The terrorist hate the Americans, the indians hate each other.

5. A terrorist prolly blow up an airport. Indians, like to work at the airport.

Kinky

2009-01-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

Thanks to the existence of oil and gas in Terengganu's offshores, i am officially a Terengganu state citizen, to be exact, Kemaman-ville (sounds lil bit more soothing). My semester break
(which will be over in two days) had been filled with my life in Kemaman-ville.

It was the Labuan Fed. Ter. experience again where you're not quite there when it comes to interacting. It took me a while to adjust to the Sabahan and Sarawakian dialect back then and i am facing a quite similar problem here.

No offence to any of Kemaman-ville residents or even those who practice such an interesting dialect, but it takes some time for me to digest what you are saying. So dont make fun of me when i say 'ringgit' instead of 'rhia' (a lady of a food business premise did).

Oh, one day we decided to head to Kuantan (an hour drive from Kemaman-Ville) and i made an amazing discovery. I regret that i did not take a picture of it. I swear you cannot make this shit up, it exist.

A building stood up and labeled, 'Wisma Kin Kee' which is very equivalent to be pronounced as the word kinky, ˈkɪŋki.

Then a group of manly men got out of the building with their overall suit. Heh?

And how ironic, we went all the way to Kuantan from Kemaman, then we had our breakfast in Kuantan at the Kemaman Kopitiam. Heh?

Oh, one more thing, drivers, do drive slowly in Kemaman-ville.

To have a resolution.

2009-01-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah, yeah, it's new year.. "What's your resolution?", "What do yea wanna achieve this year?", you always get those kind of question. So happened that it is already 2nd of january, i figured out that i do have a resolution that is "to have a resolution!". Hurm.. what i would like to achieve..

1. I owe the One up there BIGTIME. So, will be filling up the quota of 5 time prayers a day.

2. Perfected my studies as i flunk my pure-math (please let it be just pure-math).

3. Minimize procrastination!

4. Involve in minimal arguments and fights regardless any living creature (especially ants).

5. Behave maturely as i can be very much a painintheass.

6. Learn to play more songs by improving my noob guitar skills.

7. Play less DotA and CS.

8. Burn all the fats and get flat stomach (Say NO! to Babat).

9. Less consuming of junk food and beverages.

10. Visit the gym oftenly.

11. Eat more balanced diet.

12. Attend Dashboard Confessional Concert or Tours (let's not get ahead of yourself manul..)

13. Manage expenditure wisely. Do not overspend!

14. Befriend with a guy named Jesus (pronounced, 'heɪːzəs'). Mexican.

15. "PINK is STILL my favourite colour."
.

16. Learn to swear in new language apart from Malay, English, Cantonese, Mandarin, French, German and Italian.

17. Oh, minimize the act of swearing. No more Sir-Swear-A-Lot!
.

18. Beat the hell outta sonofabitch who stole my DSLR, pocket PC, swatch, Walkman phone etc.

19. Gain others' TRUST. It's quite a big issue there, mate!

20. Catch up with old friends oftenly.

21. Katakan TAK NAK pada rokok! Anda boleh melakukannya!

22. Drink more water???

23. Rob a bank.

24. Apply Carpe Diem when needed.

25. Say YES oftenly (yes, i hath join the covenant. thou should try it too!)

p/s: there are more i think..

The season pull up it's own stage..

2009-01-01T02:13:00.000+08:00

We watched the sun soaked season, fades away..

oh Russell!

2008-12-31T19:11:00.000+08:00

Another day when something stole your smile away? They said that "laugter is the best medicine", and i totally agree with that. Here's something to share when you're down. Russell Peters is the best stand up comedian that i had ever know. Been a fan of his around 2 years ago. Ahead of the Australian Adam Hills and the American Damon Wayans, this Canadian (or perhaps Indian-Canadian as he claims) has one of the greatest talents of crapping. This guy could make you laugh more than you can imagine. I have him on my iPod because he was so good. Joke speacialty? Racist. I swear to God, he is freakin' good. Just punch in 'Russell Peters' in youtube and voalla! observe, my friend.

p/s: highly racist especially to the races with 'two most largest population in the world'

so long 08

2008-12-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

2009 is around the corner. Seriously, no matter what you do, time and tide waits for no man. Well, i'm not sure about women (they should prolly do something about that phrase). Oh yea they did. 'Man' was replaced by 'one'. Sorry, my bad!

Anywayyyyy... Similar as most of us, 2008 had been a year of sweet and bitter, both amalgamated. Yea, bittersweet or what-so-other-stuff you call it. FYI, I'm not gonna bore people with my sweet and bitter memories but yea, AGAIN, similarly with most of you guys, it is another year to remember.

I'm just another human govern most entirely by emotions. I reckon that you are too. Well,

2008

It has been quite a tough year for me. Juggling some stuff not knowing the consequences. Sometimes the balls drop (well, i don't mean mine. it's a metaphore) to the ground but in some other times, the balls added up or maybe just at some point, the juggling went well.

I'll miss yea 2008. Those laughs and tears. Those exuberant feelings around. Those melancholic melodies. Those that are left in memories. Gosh, i'm getting a bit melodramatic here remembering 2008.

Thank you guys if you're reading this. It had been a great year and a part of my life. Appreciate your presence. My apology to those who i had treated wrongly. I am truly sorry. Never had any intention of doing so. Like others, i am just another human.

Sometimes i just wish that there are not enough space for me to keep the bits of 2008 but this mind of mine work its own ways. There always spaces for 2008 to be kept. I swear i could picture myself in most of the situations happened in 2008. No, i could actually literally recall as the first person of the situation.

2009 is gonna take it's place soon but yet i don't think i am ready for you, dear 2009. Sometimes i think like a silly 10 year old who wishes to turn back the time for his 10th birthday wish. If i could, i would. I'll do what i had to and stay away from what i did wrong. Hell, it is way too late now. They say no used to cry over a spilt milk. I say i can't.

Don't get me wrong that i am all about pessismist. I have my brighter colour side to. Ain't it a lil bit to early to judge a person?

The places that i shouldn't be at. The things i should have done. The things I should not had done. The ones i hurt. The ones i loved. The ones i loved. The things i missed. The intentions. The feelings. Darn it, I could go on and on and on.. (This is starting to get bored for you guys, i think).

2008

thank you

i am sorry

goodbye.

i can't make a new paragraph so that is why those dots were used. stupid-piece-of-a-shit

The Places That You've Come To Fear The Most

2008-12-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

Dashboard Confessional. This is my current music addiction. Nobody beats Christopher Carabba ways of singing. It sounds purely honest and weary but sturdy. I could give you tonnes of reason why Dashboard Confessional should be listened to. Give it a try. It has quite a precise lyrics that could impress any living beings. This is a lyric to a song that they had produced in the previous years. It's called 'The Places That You Come To Fear The Most'.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.

Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes and perfect posture,
but you're barely scraping by,
but you're barely scraping by.

Well this is one time,
this is one time that you can't fake it hard enough to please
everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all.

And the grave that you refuse to leave,
the refuge that you've built to flee,
the places that you've come to fear the most,
is the place that you have come to fear the most.

Well, it's true everyone of us have the places that we come to fear the most. A place that we hafta cover ourselves with a perfect shell, that we endlessly put our efforts to please everyone or anyone at all. Well, i'll be in the place that i've come to fear the most soon..

Holiday

2008-12-28T15:01:00.000+08:00

Originated from the word 'Holy Day', Holiday is believed to be the best part in life to almost every single person in this world. It seems that my holy days has about to come to an end. Goodbye semester break. A week more to go and i guess i won't be seeing you again. oh holiday =(. One thing that i wanna share with you guys is that i've learned quite a lot during this holiday. They are as follows:

-Ma cherie Dayana is the most lovely creature on the planet.
-Moving is pretty much tidious.
-There are no mall in Kemaman.
-Radioactive polonium and Antrax are the best way to kill people without getting caught.
-Lesbian love is the most passionate of them all.
-A vampire could be an animal blood sucker.
-A vampire is smart enough to be a doctor and hot at the same time.
-Aliens could attack the earth if the humans keep on spoiling off mother nature.
-Alien could be as hot as Keanu Reeves.
-The Americans actually interpreted Al-Quran the way it should.
-George Clooney could look so old.
-Bed-time stories could actually make me ROFLMAO
-When a alien start to attack Earth, start hugging, kissing and make love in front of them to save the humanity.
-Trust is not something you can get easily (They should sell it at the pawn store or something).
-I did not even touch three World Literature novels that i have to read for Malay A1 and 'The One Over The Cuckoos Nest' for English A2.
-I'm sorry Puan Aida, i haven't touch your work either..
-I missed Taman Melawati.
-I've gotten fatter or in our lingo, 'babat'er.
-I wanted to jog a few times but ended up twice only.
-Did not visit the gym.
-Your teacher could actually reject you from joining their E-Group.
-I flunk my math. I got threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
-My previous unstably moody cranky Math teacher has gotten married.
-Your cat could be devoured by dogs if you don't take care of it. Seen it with my own eyes.
-CAS at the GHKL is fun when ma cherie, my friends and Mid Valley are around.
-CAS hours can be obtained freely.
-KMB is the place that i've come to fear the most.
-Saying 'yes' all the time makes you a dumbshit.
-Ernie Ball produces great guitar strings.
-I can never get my DSLR back from the sonofabitch that stole it from me.
-I could die tomorrow or now. OMG.
-I touched a Nissan Skyline R35 on the road.
-Offices are open on Sunday in Kemaman!

Blue is an evil colour

2008-12-28T11:11:00.000+08:00

I realised that blue is an evil colour..

No offence to those who had been loving blue i find that blue is an evil colour..
Foods that are least eaten are blue in colour..
Monsters are either green or blue..
The sea is blue in colour. It's beautiful but i've been in the sea alone. In the middle. It is not that pleasant.
Blue coloured buildings scare the crap out of me (KMB =P)
Blue are oftenly mistaken as the bad guy..
People often said when you're down, "hey, cut the blues!"
Some people that i know have their own lingo of calling porn, "blue"
A mineral water named Blue or maybe Bleu (I cannot recall) taste like 'airkelapabasi'.
I always get a blue coloured hero when i play DotA alone. i hate it. =(
Doraemon is blue and he/she is scary.
Whales are blue! They are cute but their looks can be deceiving (whales are vicious creatures).

Yes, whales are vicious creatures. They feed on innocent little fish and worst, they ate Pinochio's father before. Japeto or something. Poor man..

Top 10 Maded Marvels.

2008-12-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Something crossed my mind today and i did some thinking. They said the best thing in life are free but then what are the best thing in life? Lemme share with you guys of my own analysis. 10 Maded Marvels, 10 most marvellous creations ever made. However, don;t take it seriously because it is just some random silly ideas i thought of. So here it goes ladies and gentlemen!

10. Vanilla
One of the best flavour in the world. Side by side with chocolate, vanilla leads most of the food and beverages industries in it's own ways. Without doubts, we have lots of kind of vanilla flavouring. Ice cream, cakes, shakes, frappuchino (you should try the Pure Vanilla from Coffee Bean and Tea Leaves, it's better than Starbucks' Vanilla Cream). I mean, vanilla flavoured food are worldwide! I would not be suprise if i encounter myself a vanilla flavoured condom. hahaha.

9. Coca Cola Light
It is the most addictive drink i have ever had in my entire life! Invented as a medicine by John Pemberton, coca cola becomes one of the leading beverages in the world. It was so good that even Budweiser cannot takeover the title that Coca Cola is holding. What makes Coke Light different from the others, in my opinion is that it has the best after-taste in any beverages that you'll have. Nothing is that much special about it because the difference is that it contains an artificial sweetner, aspartame. I'm putting Light Coke on my 9th place as i know that there can never be any beverages that could be better than this.

8. Vehicles
Cars, trains, planes, motorcycles, bicycles, tricycles, hovercrafts, etc. These are in no doubt to be placed on my number 9 of top 10 maded marvels. Without vehicles, humans would not achieve far. We hafta admit it that in our everyday lives we do encounter the usage of vehicles. Well, even if we don't we would at least acknowledge the existence of it by appreciating the usefulness of it. Vehicles had been used back then for sooooooo many purposes that anyone could ever imagine. Back then, even Zeus needed his chariot to carry himself around Mount Olympus! Moreover, vehicles are maded with purpose for it to be enjoyed looking at. Guys do this. We admire cars like they are the most beautiful creature on earth. I need vehicles to transport me around. Either cars, LRTs or others, they are more or less the same. As badly as i need vehicles, i think i need my driving license more. Yea, i don't have one...

7. Telephone
Thanks to Alexander Graham Bell, we are able to keep in touch in sooooo lotsa ways. It all started with his never-ending effort of inventing the 'telephone'. Telephones are so important nowadays that even kids as young as 3 years old would have their own cellphone. The cellphone companies are trying hard to sell of their products and that telcos are uberly obtaining and draining greens outta us. We uses telecommunication every single day regardless the money we're spending on it. It is somewhat becoming a trend on each and everyone of us. I'm sure you've seen people are getting addicted to the usage of phones and such. Well, i think i am one of them.

6. Language
A mechanism that nobody in this world could ever explained. It started of with just a single sound and pops out language. Language is famously known as a device or a tool that helps two or more beings to interact. The Egyptians nailed it well with their hierogliph and such and up to now, geologist, paleontologist, they earn millions just by trying to understand languages that had been forgotten. With language, you can understand what this is all about.

5. Laws and Legislations, Rules and Regulations
The system, the procedures. No matter what you call it, laws will always need to be abide. It is like a universal thing or something. See! It's another rules. Without laws, we are living in a world that we can never imagine. We can be barbarics, carefree, destructive, oppressed and soooooo many other consequences by not having laws. It is actually the decision made by some groups of people and to be accepted by the others and to be implemented. I see it as something that is beautiful and the simplicity of it actually makes it all complexed.

4. Music
On my 4th list, the 4th maded marvel is music. Started in a simple form of literature, music made it's way through. It is widely consumed by all different kind of people. It's majestic ways of being stuck in one's head are remainded mystery until now. This are likely to occur especially among the teenagers. Some say due to their raging hormones or something. Nowadays musics are widely used with its own purpose. Some uses it to create awareness and some uses it for their own desire and such. Basically, music is a way of sending message in the most effective ways. We dig music. We love music.

3. Love
If anything in this world that could not be solved, it is love. Love. Love. Love. You can never define it. It is such a subjective matters that it becomes controversial to some extend. A 4 lettered word could give an unimaginable affect to any single thing surrounded by it. Come to think about it, love is something that is possessed by everyone in the whole entire world. It is so perfect that not even a person in this world is missing it. As i told you, it is sooooo subjective that love are widely uses on anything. For me, love is something that will forever be undefined and that is why love falls on the 3rd place of my 10 maded marvels list.

2.Time
Time is of the essence. Believe it or not, time is just something that is maded by human beings. We set it up. We put a benchmark to it. We count it down. We did everything we can to make time exist. Why??? Life could be simpler without it but life could also be hell without it. Without time, we'll be boiling ourselves up with problems of unfinished errands and such. Time are commonly taken for granted. It moves ahead of us. We invented it, we made it exist but it is devouring us every bit by bit. Get ahead of it before it gets you..

1.All of the 9 maded marvels listed above are in no doubts maded with their own reason and purpose. I had them sorted out according to their significance but then again, just a reminder, it's my own analysis so it might be differerent from yours. So, the 1st Maded Marvels. The number one that i decided to put on top. It is pretty much not maded but yes, widely known and believed by massive amount of people. The 1st ladies and gentlemen, ISLAM. The monoetheism religion which strictly abides Allah in anyways, anytime, with anyone and in everyways. I myself proudly living as a muslim and in no doubts of the existence of one God that rules every single thing ever created. He who have maded us and to Him we belong. This body of mine is just something of to be borrowed from the Almighty God, Allah. Thank you to the prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), you and i get to live such a prosperious harmony life. With the help of millions of people around the world regardless the time barrier between them, Islam made it's way through with the ability that nothing could actually be equally good as it is. It is the greatest thing that anyone in this world could ever experienced or even imagined. All praise be to Allah.

Helping Hands

2008-12-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

Feel like sharing this with you guys. Well, all of us have our own experiences that one would like to have. So why not we take the chances, share it out!

It happens 3 days ago if i'm not mistaken. Just an ordinary day. Oh yea, i was in KL as i have to complete my CAS at the General Hospital KL. fyi, CAS stands for Creative Action Services, requirement for IB. Anywayyyyy, as i said, it was an ordinary day. I decided to catch up with an old friend (Amir Sabaruddin). Yea, we were classmates during primary school in Labuan. So we catched up a lil bit at Pavy.

Then when i was on my way back, something unexpected happened. I was waiting for the Rapid Bus or at least a cab (which is not in sight) at Wangsa Maju LRT Station, suddenly, a girl fainted on the street nearby the place where the buses stop. Some noticed and they gave a quick reflex to it. Sadly, they could not be bothered about it. All they did was reflexto it and start to tell their friends and all. Nobody give a damn help or anything. Then they approaches the girl, looking and an old man pulled my wrist asking me to help out. Bothered by the ignorant fools, i decided to help the girl out. So i went to her and lifted her up. Out of no where, an uncle (a bus driver) helped me out too. Together with the man, i lifted her nearby the kiosk. Then the man ran off. I did not even recognize his face as i only gave a glance when he offered his helping hand. I let her lie down on the floor then people started to gather round the girl and i. Then her friend pops out of the crowd and started to utter words that was quite hard to catch. All that i did catch was "dia sorang tade family kat sini pon. baru sampai blah blah blah". She was panicked to the max. I swear to God, in that tense situation she almost make it seems like it is the end of the world. So, slowly i told her to phone the Ambulance or any help.

Unfortunately she did not get my message and kept on panickingm untill the crowd asked her to over and over again. Meanwhile, i was trying to think of the reason why she fainted. Haha. Feels like Dr. Gregory House trying to diagnose a patient. While i was doing so, the lady who owns the kiosk gave the fainted girl mineral water. She did quite of efforts but i just wont work. Then a girl decided to lend a hand so they loosen up the fainted girl's tudung and cardigan (don't get any silly ideas. she was wearing a 2 piece top), and cool her up. They did that for around 20 mins and nothing happened.

Confidently, i thought of the puzzle. I'm not sure what it was but i do think it's a case of low blood sugar level. So, confidently i asked the lady for any sweet soft drinks and she handed me a 100 plus from her kiosk. Then i gave the fainted girl the 100 plus by pressing the cheeks together to open her wide for the isotonic tonic and the helping girl helps to some-what of aiding the water to go into the body by rubbing the neck and chest. It happens so, the fainted girl woke up blurly and it was a relief. Then we let her sit and then only the freakin' slow ambulance came. She should be fine by then so i decided to leave. A guy came to me and congratulated me for doing so. He asked me, "Bagus kau bro. Apa yang buat nak tolong tadi?". I answered simply, "itu perkara betul untuk dibuat". It was the right thing to do, with no doubt and i'm glad i did so.

First Post

2008-12-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

Regarding the title above, ladies and gentlemen, this is my first post of the blog. Why do i need a blog? Yea, a cliche start but still, fresh. It is just a form of expressing my inner voices that is anticipating to be heard yet, with no intention to evoke others' feelings.

Anywayyyyy, wanted to do my blog since i cannot remember when. However, I can never get the time to do so. So, im'ma hit it this time.

I choose English as my main language here as English are widely known and it is just my preferences of voicing out my inner voice. I'm not saying i have a good command of English but hey, no harm in trying. I prefer to as it is a part of my pop-culture and that it is too common that pretty much lots of us would understand and prefer it so. Readers, any mistake, and by any i do mean the slightest mistake, do correct me. Appreciate that. We learn by sharing =).

Last but not least, hope you'll enjoy it.