iThink

I think I'll go to ------...

I think I'll start a new life,

I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California,

I'm tired of the weather..

I think I'll go to ------,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...

Boston by Augustana

Harvest

Sometimes it bothers you that you can't find the right words to really hit on what you feel.

I do think a world would be a better place if humans are free from misunderstanding. Not just that, humans should also speak in the same way regardless on what they perceive. They may speak in a different language but the message should be in the same form. A standardize form that every single human being could understand. By that, there won't be any communication breakdown. There won't be misunderstanding.

Sometimes I just wish I could understand others more. Sometimes I just wish I could give others what they ought to have. Sometimes I just wish I could provide others with the best. Sometimes I just wish that I'm doing something the right way.

Sometimes I wish I could have what I want. Sometimes I wish I shouldn't have what I want. Sometimes I wish I shouldn't have what I had. Sometimes I wish I could just not have the feeling of wanting something to have. We live in a beautiful but yet strange world. The world revolves around none accept time.

There are times when you wonder how you can carry everything on your shoulder. The time when you feel so jaded and weary. The time where you think you just can't make it. When you just don't feel anything bad about yourself because you are slowly accepting that you're just non-worthy.

It's not about giving up. It's about walking at the same place of the same pace.

I wish I could. If I could I would. I need to change.

Shooting stars..

I close my eyes and "I wish for...

1. A biological symbiote that blend together with my blood and causes me to possess a blood-like physical body. Immune to probably anything (especially H1N1).
2. An amnesia.
3. A brand new brain that could work my way and others' at the same time; govern independently from emotion.
4. A day without worry.
5. Confidence. Period.

Human skin can be hard to live in, you'll feel better in the morning..

....

Who am I kidding? I'm a fucking pessimist..

Erth, Wnd, Wter and Fre.

So tell me, how can we work it out on that day when we it's time to share the gold at the end of the rainbow? I know it's not something for us to think of..

I am losing track on which way is up simply because I'm always being put down. Nay, I know I gotta be strong and do what I feel in my heart regardless of who's around. I know it might seem bold but I think that's all I have. Many centuries people are steady getting old clutchin' to what they never had.

I know I can but I know I can't. Well, you can you cunt!

Oh and Madam S,
I'm a man of my conviction, call me wrong or call me right,
But I'll bring my better angel to every fight,
You may not like where I'm going and you do know where I stand,
Hate me if you want to,
Love me if you must.

I'm doing it not as a prove to you nor anybody. I'm doing this for myself. I took their best punch.

Scratch

Sometimes i wonder will i make it thru?

The 2nd sem is done and people are now off with their options. I wonder what's left for me..

My gateway of going to my wonderland has closed. Tata. Shut-locked forever.
I know some of the people that wanted to pursue what I had been hoping succeed. Kudos to you all. It feels like a million bucks ain't it? You worked endlessly regardless what stands in front of you. I do admire your effort, mates. I have seen some of you putting in your best shot in every single second. I have seen some of you loop of from danger zone into a secure zone. I have seen the bounced back ability. I have seen them all. You chew it in, you spit it out and you're now in a safe zone. It's beautiful, really.

It hurts you inside. It does. Well, you can never really blame anyone or anything but yourself. I made mistake. Mistakes, to be exact and I don't dare to say that I never repeat them ever again. I am in a total wrecked now. A lot to catch up. A lot to give. A lot to sacrifice. A price to pay.

I bet you all get where you wanna be at. I'll sit here and smile congratulating at your success. As for me, it remains uncertain. I know you don't see that potential in me simply because it's just not there. It never exist or it's dead. Either.

We'll meet again one day. We talked, smiled, laughed, stare, lift our eyebrows, cried, touched, fight, kicked, played, sang, hum, whistled, jump together. It will remain as memories. So beautiful and yet maybe to painful to remember. We'll meet again one day and share stories. The lines across our face tells us stories of where we've been to where we are but not me. I simply choose to forget. I wanna start from scratch. My hope is scattered into pieces. I got nothing to tell you. None.

So get on. Get on with your perfect life. You are blessed =).

29

29

29 million bucks,

29 hot females,

29 cool rides,

29 LV's handbags,

29 blow jobs,

29 hot shemales,

29 scoops of Baskin' Robbin,

29 Tag Heures,

29 storey-banglow,

29 girlfriends,

29 profit-making companies,

29 thousand of fans,

29 best selling books..

29 of these sounds pleasant ain't it?

It's not when you're IB point is 29.

to hell with 29

may you burn in hell.

29

Pancake

Like a little school mate in the school yard,

we play Jackson and Uno Cards,

I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine,

yes, you can hold my hand if you want to,

'cause im gonna hold yours soon,

we'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret world..

but it's time for me to go home,

it's getting late and dark outside..

FUCK YOU